Yes Rev I hear you. I was actually meaning to ask you if we could talk or you would send me a pm about you year of not drinking. How you got to that point? How did you deal with being in bars with people and not feeling like people seemed guiltier for you not drinking?
I accidentally hit the back space key and lost a really long post. Lucky for you
But I can relate to what you are saying here. I feel like I've had alot of insight into my True Self via the Selfless effect herb Lit up inside me. I saw that this was in there and that I could follow it with action. This is basically my practice, acting on insights I have and honouring with action. Herb has been a good friend in this regaurd.
However I do feel like I had a change of mindset on this awhile ago and have been smoking so much less. I realized this mostly when I realized that I was packing a bowl and so into the book, that was really bringing much to my sight, I would forget to smoke....forget..... I thought.
Some nights while doing my assanas I get such a relived feeling that I wouldn't even dare compare smoking to it. and I think, if just doing this can make me feel so well....just questioning it alot I'd say.
I feel the more engaged I find myself in my practice the less I feel like doing these things. I've recongized that too much coffee makes me feel bad, alcohol isn't a social thing for me, I feel sorta hazed on it, and would rather have a glass with the wife at home once in a while. This is the thing I'd like to know more about from you, the change, and now I'm smoking less, while I don't feel it detracts from my practice, however I don't know that it adds anymore either. And I certainly don't smoke around times of Sittings ect....
Thanks for bringing this up man. I feel ya. And know we are on atleast the same chapter of the same book, dare I say within a page or two or more. So I know you understand that I understand. And seriously I'd like your opinion Oh Respected Friend.
In loving kindness,
Sage