i'm not overly concerned with sustaining feelings or making feelings go away. i used to be very interested in this, but now i'm treating feelings like new tools i've yet to discover the use for. i'm trying to be a lot more critical of myself and figure out
why i feel the way that i do in hopes that i will be able to better understand how to use my feelings to produce a life experience which more accurately represents what i say i've always said i want out of it. i
feel that these feelings will lead me there.
or in other words, i'm trying to make the journey not so bewildering.
