ok i looked at her emails... and it wasnt that bad! i had so much anxiety but now its all gone.
the first email is pretty depressing, she sorta shifts the blame on me and implies i have a drug problem and that im the problem because im queit and oversensitive. but she sounds pretty sad
then the second email is her basically saying how she likes me alot and is sorry she cant change my mind which also makes me feel bad.
its a huge weight off my chest that i dont have to hold up the charade and hang out with her if i dont want to. i guess my main mistake was getting too specific instead of just saying "its not working out sorry" because i just set myself up for arguing back and forth when really i just dont want to talk to her anymore.
and i reread my email and it was immaculate and perfectly written and didnt include any regretful stuff. i swear i could have submitted it as a college essay it was so perfectly worded, i think and focus really well when i am high
