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try and discipline yourself to get hold of your mind so you dictate it rather than it dictateing to you
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this has always been my biggest problem--some negative event will happen and my mind will take that initial'shock' of the event and carry it to all other aspects of my life---my thoughts, no matter how untrue they might be, start to dictate how I live--I believe everything i think.
i think the Mindfulness Meditation work I'm doing has certainly helped, as has exercise, etc. In fact, just before this last bad time I was weaning off klonopin and saw a therapist maybe every 4 or 5 months just to check in.
it just seems like this time i can't lift myself out of it or find distractions (save my girlfriend and friends, who obviously can't be there all the time) that are effective.
The tough part is I can see my thought processes, understand their falseness, see that I have blessings, see that I am blessed in distinction to others, but
still can't stop the thoughts from coming in and dominating my attention and fucking with me...and I just wonder if short term use of meds or something might help dig me out--i'm at a loss right now...
/end rambling