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Originally Posted by SageTree
You feel like the nocturnal emission was cheating?
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In a certain sense, yes. But in the same token, I found it a powerful reflection of what my mind/body needed and was sorely lacking. Add the fact the excruciating pain I was in after waking up, and I didn't feel I had much choice.
In the end however, I feel I accomplished what I set out to do; to break the 'habit' of masturbation and have it as more of an instrinsic pleasure. No longer do I feel compelled to do it simply because I do it every night and am in the habit of doing it. Moreso, I feel my doing is more to regulate my (fairly strong) sex drive while not diminishing it to the point of addiction.
I vest a lot of importance into the subconscious... the power of that dream spoke volumes to me.