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Is it worth it?
So, im wondering is it worth the torture to spend time with my ex that I truely will never stop fighting for.. to show to her to prove to her that together we can acutally be happy and that my shit poor attitude I have had can change and has changed, I know why we fell inlove in the first place but I lost myself.. I knew exactly what I wanted and had but I acted on it incorrectly.. only to push her away..
It was a controlling relationship between the both of us.. I was afraid of the love that was there and constantly expressed myself incorrectly to this girl.. It was a 4 year relationship and right now she is just wanting friend's and her own life.. which we both kinda of lost and were living for each other.. we cared alot about decision's we were making.. but also I just don't want to lose what we had and what I know we could have... 4 year's together we only spent at least 10 to 20 day's apart... Yeah it was a intence relationship.. she ended up breaking up because I always talked about awhole world out there and so many more people... I thought we were just comfortabled with each other but.. it was really love... I know I can give her what she is looking for and what she wants but.. at the same time she dosnt believe I can change.. and is looking for that perfect relationship
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