wnfakind

Mainly I've felt like this since I dug deep into mushroom's and took huge doses where I felt like I broke some sort of threshold.. the whole ego death.. Felt like it alot more recently without even tripping or thinking about the trips.. alot seem's to be after losing my girl..

Alot of it started happening after I went through a really hard drug using phase.. It started to get alot better after I started to realize, the so called friend's I had wernt really friends and just drug friends...

After all of that I I met this girl who we dated for 4 year's... She broke it off because I wasnt going down the same path I once did, the whole drug scene, coke, e all of that carp.. she bailed on me and it made me feel as if I was missing out.. But then I realize now she has turned into a peice of trash and is nieve to the whole issues about drugs... she started to do blow and her care went away for the one's who acutally care about her and her deal is making friends with people who do all that same crap and she is now living with a dead beat 35 year old who's money goes up his nose and to booze she even told me she was using him... I feel as if I grew up to fast.. but I enjoy that scene but realize its a dead end.