tedkennedy

you are correct waves, but at the end of the day if you have no money and no bitches are you going to be happy? can you be happy when you dont have nice things? can you feel proud of yourself without money and bitches?

i dunno i am a free thinker too, and i have pretty radical beliefs. but quite frankly every time i talk to anyone, friend or family member they want to talk about credentials, ie. how good your grades are, are you graduated, what awesome jobs you have lined up. i personally dont give a shit about these things but when i live in a world where all that matters is the size of your resume, i cant help but compare myself and feel like an inadequate loser

for example i am not graduating this year because i fucked up a semester a few years ago while dealing with crippling anxiety disorder, so everyone i talk to i have to explain why i am not graduating and they all make me feel like a fucking loser idiot. in reality i just dont give a shit about grades and hate school, but at the end of the day, whether or not i care about the meaning of grades, i am going to be infererior because of my lower grades.

thats just how society is... its a rat race and people are willingly caught up in it. college is the opitimy of it... brown-nosing cockbags

i want to get away from society but quite frankly i dont fucking know how, all i know is that i need to make money if i want to do anything, so im stuck in the system that i despise so much but now i have shot myself in the foot for being against the system since highschool and not caring about my "career future"

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matthew munari