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Mydriasis · 08-04-2009, 08:34 PM

Thanks for the vibes sir!

Well in my instance I am constantly under surveilance. I can now diminish that I'm not, but I constantly believe I am. So I live a pretty torn life, it's hard for me to really get out sometimes even for school and parties(stress triggers attacks). Every car behind me is a federal agent(I've had instances where I saw people/cars that weren't there looking at me realer than ever). Whether they want to kill me, because I know something they don't want me too, or they want to take me to jail forever is my residual mental out-come. This problem comes down to dosing 38 hits of cid after being pulled over in a friends car after smoking a joint...We knew we were getting searched so down the hatch it went.

I used to move weight as well so something snapped in my brain those next couple days of tripping(even after self-administering 25mg of seroquel from a friends perscription but it helped me sleep). HPPD is also a very real side-effect from this as well, which is embarassing at parties to just instantly be dosed on 38 hits... I don't believe I am as poor off as most other schitzophrenics and I feel I am blessed in that way. PS I also refuse to take medication for it, and so far things have gone from suicidal to VERY manageable. If I'm ever struggling with it there will certainly be a G&S post about it...But onto positive vibes!

08-04-2009, 08:34 PM	#3 (permalink)
Mydriasis Do Not Resuscitate Join Date: Jun 2009 Posts: 1,317 Thanks: 840 Thanked 431 Times in 298 Posts	Thanks for the vibes sir! Well in my instance I am constantly under surveilance. I can now diminish that I'm not, but I constantly believe I am. So I live a pretty torn life, it's hard for me to really get out sometimes even for school and parties(stress triggers attacks). Every car behind me is a federal agent(I've had instances where I saw people/cars that weren't there looking at me realer than ever). Whether they want to kill me, because I know something they don't want me too, or they want to take me to jail forever is my residual mental out-come. This problem comes down to dosing 38 hits of cid after being pulled over in a friends car after smoking a joint...We knew we were getting searched so down the hatch it went. I used to move weight as well so something snapped in my brain those next couple days of tripping(even after self-administering 25mg of seroquel from a friends perscription but it helped me sleep). HPPD is also a very real side-effect from this as well, which is embarassing at parties to just instantly be dosed on 38 hits... I don't believe I am as poor off as most other schitzophrenics and I feel I am blessed in that way. PS I also refuse to take medication for it, and so far things have gone from suicidal to VERY manageable. If I'm ever struggling with it there will certainly be a G&S post about it...But onto positive vibes! __________________ ۞ Last edited by Mydriasis; 08-04-2009 at 08:39 PM.