Spanky : Mydriasis said it wisely. Dont even bother with the loosers. Its better being alone than being with people you dont have any repsect for.
I m sending ya some super social vibes, from my party days. I have no use for them atm anyway. Thanks for your wishes. My wife has to go to her OB gyn today because she has been bleeding for a month after giving birth. this happened the first time she gave birth as well and she did have to do an operation (something like an abortion) to remove a little piece of placenta still in her woumb.
When she gave birth last month, her doctor did the same operation to her right after giving birth, because she needed it (once again placenta was still in). So we thought that the bleeding would stop, since she had done it and all.
But one monht later, the bleeding hasnt stopped and she needs to go today to have it checked. We hope she doesnt have to do it again (!). 1) because its painfull 2) because i cant handle a newborn and a 2yo alone at home 3) because are finances have been quite low for the past 3 years.
plus they told us that our little one has somekind of enzyme deficiency (G6PD). but they re not sure yet. I m not complaining. Just want to say it somewhere.
we re trying to do our best to see some light at the end of the tunnel, but its not there yet. Sometimes u need some motivation, u know?
sorry for the long post
all vibes welcome
Mydriasis : I think you re on your way to mental stability. IMHO i dont think theres anything "wrong" with you. Doctors are quick to put a label on a conditon. And they put a label that sounds so scary....(been there) and makes us think we re even worse than we thought...
Sometimes we all think we re going crazy. Seeing things, hearings things or just trying to make it. Find me one who is totally sane....
sometimes i also think they re after me. Maybe cause i grow (for presonal use). Last night i even dreamed about it. Undercover cars in my neighborhood for me. Then i wake up and think to myself, why would undercover cops be on your ass, for 4 plants?
just my paranoia u knwo what i mean?
Most of the time stress works in weird ways and affects the whole body (including mind).
Praying and meditation helps me best, but many times i find myself occupied with other things (work than needs to be done at home) and i dont pray. then i get stressed, tired, unmotivated, despressed, etc.
then i ll pray/meditate and all the problems seem manageable.
Sweating too many "little things", makes us think that there is one big problem ahead of us that cant be solved. We all fall into that trap, because we dont find time for ourselves. Time to feed our soul with positive energy from outer space. Far far away.
