Bearsy

I've been in love with the same girl since my Freshman year in high school. I'm now a Sophomore in college.
I enjoy her company more than anyone else I know. When we hang out we can talk for hours on end about any subject.
She's the only female I know who can keep up with me in a conversation, on every subject and sometimes throw me off with information and stuff that I didn't know.
In the course of an hour's conversation we can span everything from which nut is the best, to theoretical physics, to religion, to politics, to video games, to music, to art.
Whenever I finished talking with her I would come away feeling intellectually and emotionally fulfilled.
She always tells me how she misses our conversations because "the last good conversation I had was the last time we chilled."
I don't even care about having a physical relationship with her... that's not to say it wouldn't be great, she is really beautiful, but really I just want to be able to spend every waking moment of my life with her.
With any girl I meet, Mairin is my standard of perfection. This has been the case for at least 4 years now.
One night about 6 months ago I got really drunk and texted her that I really liked her(I didn't say love, because I still had some sense).
She told me she loves me.
Like a brother.
I've never cried so hard in my life.
We haven't hung out since that night.

I've just been feeling very alone for the past week or so. I could do with a hug.

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