Sage I know your inner strength will see you past that rough time. It's a cosmic wave, just make sure when it starts peaking to ride it back onto shore. Body surfing!
I've been contemplating death a lot lately as well. I've truely come to grips with a lot of things but it's officially a year since one of my pals got murdered
. RIP Jaz. So I feel for you, it's hard to have such a love for things and just watch them go off to exploring the unknown. But one good thing about this kind of feeling is, everyone get's it. So I'm here with ya in a way.
Bearsy - I know your going through some really rough times as well. Bearsy your too good to go looking for this one girl. She doesn't deserve you romanticly if she can't appreciate you romanticly.
Also don't go on losing weight for other people. If you want to. Lose it for yourself. You've got a big heart man, and it will only be a problem for you, if you close it off to be something else.
& much love to my brothers and sisters looking for strength and courage in these rough times.