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So I dont know where to post this, and I really need some advice..

I was in a relationship for 4 years.. I loved this girl since the first time I saw her, we fell in love pretty hard and deep. We shared the same care it was extremely coodependancy.. We had been through the worst and also had the best.. Around the 3rd year of the relationship we started to get into alot of stupid drug's together.. Not the good ones.. Coke, extacy, ketamine.. She has an extremely addictive personality when it comes to these substances.. and now I absouletly regret having those thing's involved in a relationship and I know im a complete dumbass but I didnt see this coming.

Within the last month of the relationship we were still "inlove" But just about 2 hours ago, we were talking on the phone.. first time we acutally talked on the phone for an hour and this is now 9 months after the relation has been over.. She is still hitting the drug's pretty hard and relies on them to enjoy herself and to feel that everything is alright..

What get's me is I thought maybe all the coke was what changed her feeling's about me but she openly admitted it was the ketamine.. we only did about 5 grams in the last month of out relationship.. just to well "experience" blah blah whatever you may want to call it.. but she said that's what changed the feelings she had for me.... I really don't understand this, the feelings I have always had for her have always been there and nothing changed for me.. Personally I used to do that stuff often when going out and just chillin with friend's before I met her so that's why I feel thats the reason why the way I felt about her didnt change..

I understand it's a type of psychedelic, and does make you feel different/more extreme but how is it possible it makes you change the way you love someone and care for them or even fall out of love....

Has anyone been in this situation or has ever known of anyone that this has happened to?... Possibly not but just over that period of a month.. I think maybe it may have been best but she is still heading down that path.. and now is gonna start doing shrooms.. which kinda concerns me but then again I think maybe it will wake her up because right now she isnt in any emoitional state to be involved or really function or progress. Ugh I dont know how to explain it.. Just need some advice.. harsh or helpful would both well help