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i feel you bro.
i used to be the exact same way. I just couldnt do it. I couldnt eat my food in front of people. Sure the family was okay, but even my friends at lunch, I used to get so insecure about eating, like they would watch me and be judging everything from how big the bites i took were to what kind of food i was eating. I just couldnt stand it. I remember when one of my brothers friends came over to pick him up and i was eating lunch watching tv and i just had to stop. I couldnt eat with her there i felt so embarassed eating with her watching me. I also used to have this thing where i couldnt look into peoples eyes. I felt as if i was ugly and everytime i looked at them theyd be able to see it. My self confidence was just not there. I dont exactly know how i overcame it. Gradually, with lots of teaching and realizing that it doesnt matter. anybody who is stupid enough to judge you on what you eat or how you eat it doesnt deserve your attention. all thats stopping you from giving it your all is the walls that you've put up and attatched a diffrent picture to. Maybe its a picture of your brothers gf or maybe its a picture of your art teacher. One things forsure though man, all things will pass and you will have the strength to get past them when the time comes. trust me
lots of love and good vibes in your direction man
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