After quickly reading through I realize that a lot of my anger, and frusteration does stem from my opinion verses what you have posted. I am going to look more into buddhism. My clandestine methods toward spirituality have taken me pretty far, but it is a true gift to be able to "skip ahead" and learn from someone who has themselves learned the material I am working on.
My response is probably a bit clouded at this moment, because that is my current state of mind

. Had some drinks with the family, but thank you for sharing, and I am naturally drawn to what you have said sage.