Myrdiasis and BibleGuy, you two are awesome; You have revived my interest in this forum. I know that I'm not crazy, at least in a negative sense, and a debate on that topic is not what my interests were directed towards when posting. Rather, a discussion of enlightenment and the journey through it, is what interests me. I guess I'm just making sure that I'm on the right path... since sometimes it seems to be so so desolate.
Myrdiasis:
1. Publish your math bible creation story - your mom may not feel comfortable with it, but the world needs to know the truth and people's minds always need expanding. Plus I'm curious to read it
2. Your post put
me at ease! It was pleasant to read and imagine the possibilities... this may sound funny, but I can feel the energy of truth in your recounting.
I think that the reason why you have had so many awesome trips is that you became nothing in one of your first ones: you have been able to let go of your ego - something which I really need to practice doing.
As for being a portal: On new years I felt like I was being raped by some sort of male spirit, I needed to let go of my discomfort with it, may be called my ego, in order for it to stop. Later, i realised that this was my personification of the western world and specifically New York, where I had just spend a semester. So I understand the difficulties that may come with having spirits pass through you... thought I have had a bit less experience with it. In trying to figure out how to deal with this, to avoid 'rape', and to deal with fear in general, I came to the conclusion that I should just expand and let the energy flow through and out of me. This lines up with my general goal: of being everything... the ultimate female energy I suppose. (Female being all potential, and Male being the activation of that potential) Before that experience I had mostly seen myself in different dimensions or personalities with in myself.
I respect your ability to experience these energies, props to you
A future goal of mine is to gather a group of people with similar abilities and see where we can go together... practice doing what our mass energy is capable of, and does anyway, consciously... after figuring it our a bit
BibleGuy, after reading that bit about Moses, I'm thinking of making some CannaOil to anoint myself with. ;-) I've just discovered how easy it is to make brownies. Will THC absorb through the skin?
<3
.Yan