Well if there's ever a convention of batty people let me know! haha
I haven't shattered my ego it always seems to pop up at weird times. But I did learn damn fast not to have it around especially when I invite these things into my body!
Reading into your trips is one of the most crucial things I think a hallucinogen user can do. I'm glad you turned the dark experience around into something of value to your life. I too have a problem with irrational fear. I think it is the curse for the mind.
Lately I've been doing really good to get around it though. My fears are that everyone is a cop, and I don't know why I really care so much I guess I just fear false authority influencing my life. I've been breaking the thought loops of it though and have been living a lot more at ease haha.
As for THC being transdermal(absorbab le through skin) I don't think it is. However the other cannabinoids or perhaps even THC has other healing powers(aside from spiritual & mental use) are very likely. I watched a documentary where people were using direct applications of some kind of cannabis extract to heal blemishes and skin cancer. I don't think you can get high from it that way though, unless you took a bath in it maybe haha.
Oh and don't let this forum get you down, there is some obvious jibberish and closed-mindedness, though it's just like a city in real life. There's all walks of life that visit here for different purposes
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and be sure to invite the good spirits/energies to influence your life!