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Old 10-19-2009, 07:10 AM   #15 (permalink)
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Originally Posted by Bearsy View Post
Life extension treatments won't come around fast enough to benefit me.
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Even if they did, I don't have anything to live for, I just exist.

they always seem to be having lots of fun with people and I never do.

...there's nothing I can do about it.

...I'm too scared to do anything about it.
...sit and just stare at my monitor wondering why


About 80% of the time, I'd rather do drugs by myself
...I automatically assume there's something wrong with them

...filled with thoughts and inner-reflections that tear me to pieces.

the only person who wanted to go was Blue Dolphin(yes, from Yhka).
I ended up giving them to my brother and he never even said thank you.
You seem pretty apathetic and way too contradictory.
Don't be such a downer, because it will only propel you further into this shit. You have to make a conscious effort, and if that's too much for you, then it's too much for you. Self inflicted.
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