Hey Bearsy Bro,
There's a bunch of good advise in here. I've been depressed before too and suffered from terrible anxiety most of my life. Xanax is calming, but be aware that it is a depressant. I'm no psychologist but I can tell you some things that help me:
I play positive-message music that I like. Stuff I really like that lifts my spirit.
Sing songs that I like to myself... in the car, on a walk, etc., again, the positive messages lift my spirit.
Sometimes I play music that speaks to what's bothering me. It helps me to know that someone else, like the artist, understands.
I like to spend time outside in the sunshine taking in the simple beauty of nature. Same at night under the Moonlight.
After deep evening meditation in smoke I always feel better, more relaxed and centered the next day. I don't personally take anything else and I dumped all of my Rx's. (I'm not advising you to do this, its just what I chose to do).
I attend drum circles with a bunch of cool folks from all walks of life, for two reasons:
- To join with other others in a circle of music, peace and oneness.
- To meditate. I give thanks, smoke, close my eyes, lose myself in the rhythm and... dissolve. Very therapeutic and often profoundly illuminating.
I pause to breathe... deeply... slowly... and center, when I need to. It really does help.
I read a good book and watch good movies.
I remember/repeat certain scriptures, quotes and good words to myself to remind me of good things. There's one by Mark Twain that reminds me that I'm on the right path.
Also, if I was depressed right now I would personally seek the advise of a good herbalist. Pharmaceuticals are
not the original way provided by the Creator.
I've found one good friend who I can talk to about anything. If you don't have someone close to you like that right now there is always this forum and, although it's not quite the same, we love you Bearsy.
Hang in there brother... find your passion... eliminate things you don't want or that get you down. You are a little piece of God, Bearsy, and thus part of all of us. You are priceless. And you have a very cool name.