my dad was never really around either, one would call him a drunk as he drinks at least 6 beers a day, yet i've only seen him actually drunk maybe 3 times in my life. and he's like Debasers, pretty much a dick 24/7. when him and my bitch ass step mom split up for a while, it was the best time of my life. me him and my older brother rented an apartment and it was real chill. he was always kicked back crackin jokes and shit but as soon as he got back wit my step mom, he flipped back to how he used to be. plus he works A LOT so he was never around growing up. i don't have one good memory of me and my dad. every time we went some where alone, we would always end up arguing, with a couple exceptions. and this is all ignoring my step mom. that woman is evil. she's pushed my brother so far her threw he against a wall and beat her head in a couple times. she was like yellin and pullin his long hair talkin about he's shit just like our mom, who's never around either. sayin that she's the only mom we've ever had. which is fucked up because all of us our kinda sensitive about our mother situation. thats a whole nother story. my step mom caused me to move in with my grandma. who is pro-pot
/rant with overall, i'm driven to be the very opposite of my father, and be there for my kid. i want my kid to feel as he is, created by me, as a part of me.