Good Morning Yahooka. I was gonna write something cute here today, but Mikey... my heart goes out to you man. Sorry you're having a difficult time. Prayers, thoughts and good vibes for you...
Sage said it all so well, but regarding Duncan a quote I once read came to mind that goes something like
"Don't frown because it's over. Smile because it happened." I know you're sad right now, but when you're ready...
Your relationship... that's a hard place to be. Sounds like you may be stuck in a rut. All I can offer is my opinion: change gears. Do something different, unusual, special... just to make her smile. Then do something else... and then something else... I bet you'll smile too. Maybe you'll smile together. Find your own joy in hers. Maybe you'll rekindle your flame, if that's what you want. I wish you both love and happiness.
Some ideas here.
Another one here.
Peace,
BG