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This is my second year going to a local community college and I don't feel like I'm learning a thing. I've taken a couple good courses; psychology and equipment operation/small engines were fun and I'm enjoying my philosophy class.

I'm there for a degree in Liberal Arts. I was in engineering but there was some bs with that so I switched majors. I feel as though, when registration opens for the following semester, I'm just picking the easiest courses I can find because nothing they offer interests me. I am taking an Art class this semester, but I have used up all my open electives at this point.

Besides the few courses I take that I really look forwards to going to, it's all the same rhetoric recited by different professors. In my literature class, for example, we've read probably 15 or so pieces that we have discussed in class and I have even written a paper on the Odyssey, but I can't tell you much besides the main premise of each story.

The same thing with math and other subjects, too. I can't remember much of pre-calc 2, psychology, how to write a paper according to MLA format, citations, anything chemistry. I took a course on the new windows office suite, but after 5 months I don't know how to do much in excel besides open a spreadsheet and input values into cells.

The only history I know is what I watch on the History channel, Military channel, or look up on my own. Like the stories I have read in Lit class, the stuff we learn in "History" is in and out of my head like a cheap hooker in a motel.

Some people have offered the idea that perhaps we're just going to school to learn how to deal with people and it's where we get used to working white collar, cubicle shit jobs typing on computers all day. I don't like this thought and refuse to have a “career” working in some office doing remedial work surrounded mindless fools. I've worked at the shipping end of a company that has a large “office group”. They are all mind washed idiots who can't wait for their flu shots, opening Christmas presents or whatever holiday which best idealizes consumerism the most.

I still don't know what I want to do with this "knowledge" I have attained.

Throughout my entire school career, I have learned more about doing my best at not doing anything, but making it look as though I am. I think this has to do with the fact that the only one consistent thing throughout elementary, High school and college, is that I have home-work to do that I don't want to do and I don't care about. This is literally the only consistent learning I can attest to (besides being a kiss-ass).

Now I don't mean to sound like I don't give a shit about my education, I get good grades and my professors seem to like me. I pay attention in class and take notes, do most of my homework on time and do well on my tests. I show up prepared for class most days, I don't ever need to ask someone for a pen or paper (that's my own responsibility), and I don't use my phone in class.

Right now I'm supposed to be working on an essay that's due on Thursday, it's a detailed analysis of a character from one of the works we read for class or some other humble crap. What essays really are, are bullshit. It's just a way for them to measure how well can we comprehend instructions, extrapolate information, interpret that informations, and we work it into some superficial “thesis” statement that I absolutely don't care about. I have found the easiest way to get an A on my papers is to do the very minimal work while still proving the thesis statement, and make it eloquent enough to be easy to read.
The only things I have learned in school that I can consider practical knowledge, knowledge I'm going to use in real life, is what I learned in high school. I went to a technical school for carpentry and I use the skills and knowledge of that almost every day and I feel very fortunate to have that.

I'm continually ushered to make big decisions about the rest of my life in the courses I take at school, but it doesn't seem, to me, to make much sense if I can't find an interest in anything there. I have absolutely no idea as to what I want to do for the rest of my life and I don't think that college is going to help me find that.

The only thing I'm really, honestly, looking forward to is a service trip I am going on. In January myself and a group of 15 or so students and advisors are going to New Orleans to help rebuild houses that were destroyed in hurricane Katrina. This will be my first time going to a culturally different area; Florida really doesn't count and the family drove down to FL when I was younger.

I sometimes feel like I'm the only person who sees things from this perspective, which makes it hard for most people to understand and why I usually don't bother telling them. When they ask about college I tell them I'm going to a community college for Liberal Arts and I'm going to transfer to a public university when I graduate. This actually helps me tell who actually cares about my life, and who is just asking out of repetition, because someone who actually cared wouldn't be satisfied with such a vague answer.

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