It's Another Monday...

Well, its actually Sunday at midnight... A new week begins. Ah the pressure of a new week, expectations of productivity. Another chance to make this the week that I get my life together. I know that its urgent, that time is of the essence. The walls are closing in on me and I need to figure a way out. I have been in a deep rut for too long and I need to get out before its too late. I need to get up off the mat and take another swing. You know, get back on the horse... But I need a plan of action, no more shooting from the hip or ballpark guesses.

I'll should start by finding a better daily routine, a better sleep schedule. Deal with my problems as soon as possible, don't let them build up. All the little things add up and before you know it, every little thing becomes a big thing. I need to face my fears - face adversity with confidence and don't make room for negitive thoughts. I have to remind myself that its better to deal with my problems and move on (like quickly tearing off a band-aid and you feel so much better once its over) then to avoid or ignore what will have to be handled eventually anyway. It feels like just before a dentist appointment, but worse. Like just before a car wreck. But then I have to realize that its all in my head and its not as hard as I thought it would be. One step at a time, one game at a time, one quarter at a time, one day at a time, one thing a time and its all manageable.

I've learned, the most important thing you can do everyday is to always tell the truth to yourself, know the truth, grab and hold on to the truth and never let it go. You want to know the truth because you can negotiate with the truth, it empowers you. The truth at this moment is that this blog has become not as I had originally thought, meant for you - the reader. Truth is, I am writing this to myself - to remind myself of what I need to start doing. In fact, in the very near future there will be more doing than thinking. Maybe this will be the week where I can make my thoughts into reality. Like Mom always says, "If its meant to be, its up to me"

In a way, if I post this, I'm letting my intentions be known to the whole world. Now that you know how I feel about things your naturally going to expect results. Otherwise, you could say that I'm all talk and no walk or that I don't practice what I preach. To me that equals more expectations, ah the pressures of a Monday. However, if I'm able to keep my word and I man up and get out of this rut, you can bet there will be some positive results. And I look forward to blogging about it one day.

Its time to make things happen...

I will find a path to achieve my goals and with hard work, discipline, honesty and integrity nothing in the verse can stop me.

"If you will it, it is no dream." - Theodore Hertzel (The Big Lebowski)

"This is our true glory. Never forget this. There is little we cannot do if we can only imagine ourselves wanting to do it. The future is to those who take it. We are conquerors of time and of distance. Our cause is just, our heart is high, so let us then I say, press forward."