Wow, I haven't seen these forums in months. I got arrested and assaulted by the police in Boulder Colorado (tased twice).. Long story short, I have had to pay so much money for my lawyer, court fees, Community service, intervention and UA's. I have had 3 UA's a month for so long because of course my first one was sprung on me and came back positive. Theres nothing like taking a piss while some smarmy kid is staring at me and driving to Boulder from where I live to meet with someone my age (20's) for 5 minutes, hand them 50$ and drive back.
My lawyer got me off by meeting with the judge and the DA and showing them my excellence in school and at my job and now it looks like this nightmare has come to an end, though I still have a deffered sentence and if I get into trouble I will be auto convicted. The first trouble I have EVER had with the law, and it had nothing to do with weed.. I was drunk and asleep in front of my apartment and the cops came and In my stupor I resisted arrest very non-violently (my roommates witnessed) I got my head driven into the wall and tased and cursed at.
I've lost all my hookups and haven't even seen a pipe in nearly 5 months. Quiting smoking wasn't hard, actually it was a nice break, but now I am almost scared. Its a mixture of fear that I may get caught by someone elses stupidity and partly because I am nervous that for some reason they will be able to test me again, if a mistake was made (unlikely but hey I have anxiety).
Anyways sorry for the long post, I just wanted to vent. I think the key to hapiness is moderation. All good things seem better when they are not constant. Whether that be drinking all day until I can't even understand that I am being arrested, or smoking so much in one day that I am just wasting. Aristotle and the Golden mean.
Anyways I am so ready to see how my tolerance has gone down, I havn't had this long of a total break and I'm fixin on floating. Every time I drank when I couldn't smoke, I just kept thinking how much I'd rather be smoking to get the kind of feeling I truly enjoyed. I used to smoke a ton, but I switched to once or twice a day before I got arrested because again, in moderation I am so much happier.
My ramblings---
