[Porcelain]

I went through a phase of being stoned all day everyday and I started engaging in automatic writing. Not sure what any of this means to you but I've let people read this who thought it was trippy shit so I thought I'd share it with you guys.
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you're the music to my life because i hear you all the time and every drawer i open you sit inside there like a little fairy singing everything that touches my soul and it makes me slow to say things that dance and what do you say to that somehow you're so intense in that sense because that which glows through you is sunshine glowing on me and warming me because where you are is near me its the secret that i keep from myself so deeply in that which is bigger than us so sometimes you just go without stopping and without thinking because it's glory when you wait for the surprise of finding out where it's brought you when you're foolish so it's fucking funny like that in the most melodic way sometimes we can look and laugh together since we know one another so well you're a very cool person who i'm lucky to hold hands with as we walk the road of life together i will say it every time on every line until somehow the words fall out of me since i love enough to learn you and be you who are truly what is eternal you.

sleep under the dancing stars that slip through time like sand in the softness of a voice you use to speak to me like dripping honey because it makes you stop and feel something where there was nothing there before so i cry sometimes for friends of mine who are just ghosts of something so afraid to feel they fight things so roughly they hurt themselves so what can i say to that singing like a little bird who falls to the feet of something it can drown in just going to the seas to swim in an endless breath setting your heart free but it's funny i feel nothing at the same time but with you anticipation exists with the hunger for life although i know there's things i can be slow to finish with because i know you from before incase you forgot it was once upon a dream just holding hands in the question mark shape can you explain that to me oh bold teacher of mine just reaching for infinity he tries to mock meand what it is in life i stand for in the darkness of the navy blue sky not quite bright enough to light my way like flashing neons that i need in my mind's eye to break from you to sometimes take the intensity away and fall deeply into a slower harder beat with a man who can kiss the sky and we too have things we dance around to that's right so softly madly screaming whispers in eachother's ears becoming immortal so i ask where are you going with those wings screaming sexy angel who does crazy shit with people's minds i write about you and touch you gently like i'm pretending to just be ok about you see i have a heart someplace beating the strings of time in pink lines floating around like a dancing leaf in the wind.
-May 27, 2007.
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turn the page what do you see blank canvases that's all there ever was take anything where were we when it happened dripping water spirits change you what did you feel today experiencing your life so where do we start then you should have always been my friend what are you even talking about sometimes so now i'll move you to where you want to go you yearn to fill the space so what makes you think that you're so different from me are you who you say they never are are they so anything a word i said i know i could have been there with you
-June 14, 2007.
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if i paint you yellow and green what does it all mean are you my friend for life or are you just a dream because it always seems you disappear into the nowhere air write a fairy tale on the rocks of a sea shore somewhere we must have met one time too long ago so bring back the moment you and i were reborn as the knowing of things secretly shared among the two of us give it all away without saying it cuz it's our secret devil boy you must have realized a long time aho that you're not such a bad guy because i am i'm the bad guy who can run fast and steal you away into my own world and you won't even know it like wolves in sheep's skin timid child be the lover you are deep inside cuz once it's gone it's gone forever unless you say otherwise real things break your heart in the most epically orgasmic of ways like making sex to someone you truly want to be your keeper.

so when you run with the stars be sure to touch them like every moment which runs away and cycles only to come back again until you face the eyes of fear and overcome the insides of your body while listening to the voice that's silent in behind your eyes little lamb how do you picture smoke dances in your mind drift into a noise of pleasure screaming to you take me for all i have to give it's yours you can have it but give me something you touch of yours for your insanity makes me horny every madman has his mirror image in the others and we're just two of a piece of glass.
-June 20, 2007.