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Yeah, anyone i 'get' with either doesn't know what they want and blames me for not knowing either, is (was) as crazy as I am(was) and has mad mad issues that get in the way of intimacy, or is using me.
That's how each one's pretty much been. Not all at once, those were just examples.
don't get me wrong, i was head over heels for these girls at the time, but some thing always manages to present itself and interject and blossom into repulsion in us.
Sigh.
Because I want to have a girlfriend, but something always gets in the way, at some point in the relationship.
I actually met up with an ex of mine, she always was a good person, saw her at the mall, got her number, we're going to meet up and blaze. She had to break up with me, back in senior year. I completely understand because I was on house arrest, was completely crazy from amphetamine abuse, we only got to see eachother once a week...to not break off a relationship like that would have been crazier, and i fully appreciate what and how she did.....sure it hurt, but she was a sweety about it.
I might fuck her. she was always horny, and I have been lately too. we'll see how she feels about that idea.
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-- Marcel Proust
The power of accurate observation is commonly called cynicism by those who have not got it.
--George Bernard Shaw
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