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Originally Posted by Jimmy Coonan
Yeah, I'm sure my parents divorce has affected me in a lot of ways I'm only just starting to be aware of. They separated when I was 12, I'm 22 now. My Dad moved away, I didn't see him much after that. Not that I ever saw him much in the first place. I'm sure my own rather jaded view of relationships and difficulty with maintaining one has a lot to do with growing up in such a bad one. There's more, but I need to put some more thought into it before I post more, it's only over the past few months that I've stopped running from and denying who I am and sorting my feelings out in my head.
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Yeah. It's weird how you sort of push those feelings back and don't deal with them, and then, low and behold, one day they come back with vengeance.
My anger really started to get intense when I got married and started having babies. That's when you realize the depth of love you can have for your own child, and cannot comprehend hurting them in such a way. It is so ultimately selfish to do that to your kids...
It's such a double-edged sword. Do you stay in a miserable marriage for the sake of kids, and end up fucking up their perspective on what a 'healthy' relationship should and could be? Or do you throw in the towel, and rip their lives apart in another way?