Well, this might take a whole to write/read but I would appreciate some feedback on this situation i'm getting myself into.
Ok, the easiest way to start is to work our way backwards from here...
Right now I'm seeing this amazing woman whom I adore with every waking breath. She's beautiful and charming, full of wit and intelligence, and makes everything better in my life just by being there. She's super cute, has sholder length brown hair, deep brown eyes, an amazing smile and the body of a goddess.
I've been sleeping with her for about a month now and none of my feelings have waivered, not even a flicker of a doubt that I care about her and I lust for her and that I am completely engrosed in her.
The thing is; We've done this before. A long time before. 5 years to be exact. We ended our relationship 5 years ago and i hadn't spoken more then 4 words to her until a month ago when randomly i ran into her and she said we should hang out sometime, I asked her to come get a fruit smoothy with me and she accepted.
Now when we ended the relationship 5 years ago a lot of shit had been going on in the relationship. She was a douche bag sometimes and so was I. After we broke up she started going out with this guy i knew my whole life and always thought he was a douche bag. I'm not sure, but i think she started going out with him to piss me off. They went out for a while, eventually she broke up with him. After which she started going out with this other high school friend of mine. I was, and still am, completely cool with this guy who lives around the corner from me and we see each other on a regular basis.
They broke up about 6 months ago and since then, according to her, she's been 'playing the feild'. Which I just assumed meant sleeping around a fair deal. I haven't confirmed anything with anyone but this is my impression.
Anyone who knows me from this board know's i tend to go out and 'play the feild' myself and I can't hold any of that against her. And I don't. I don't hold any of the shit that happened 5+ years ago against her. I don't hold her relationships with 2 school buddies of mine against her, I don't hold her possibly slutty behavior of the past 6 months against her either. I've pretty much just let it all go.
And thats the most refreshing, rewarding feeling I've ever exerienced. I can forgive and forget about all the other shit that happened and look to the future with this girl, instead of dwelling in the past.
Pretty much every night for the last month she's been sleeping in my bed, being my naked little spoon, usually after a good deep dicking and a nice bowl of green to cap off the night. I'm usually waking up to sex or a blowjob or a backrub. When she was on the rag, she brought me breakfast in bed. What a woman.
It's pretty much the most perfect situation I've been in since... well... since we broke up.
I've been single for the most part of that 5 years. Any relationship has lasted a maximum of 4 months and usually been mostly sexual in nature. Infact there's not much to say about 'em except for the crazy amounts of sex and weird shit that they did.
Anyways, I am just looking for some insight here. I don't know anyone that can relate to this situation and all of my friends/ppl i've told are juat all 'Ohhhhh that's like the cutest story everrrr'. So i was kinda looking for more into it and maybe just to get the story written down somewhere...
People that knew us when we were going out thought that we were really good together back then. In high school we were voted most likely to get married. A week later we were broken up. We haden't spoken to each other until 5 years later almost to the day. The day that we ran into each other and went for a booster juice...
We've been fuckin' and smokin' and enjoying each others company since then.
