[AnimalLover420]

I've come here because all of the people I know in real life who have experience with long-term relationships are family, and I don't feel comfortable telling them some of what I'm feeling. I also don't think that my man ever visits this place anymore, so it should be safe.

Here's my problem. My boyfriend and I have been together for over 5 years. We've been through a lot of difficult shit and broken up several times, one of those times we even stayed apart for about 2 months. We've had a rocky relationship, but one thing was always certain: we were in love. The thing is, I think I may be falling out of love with him. I know that relationships don't always have the "brand-new" passionate phase characteristic of first meeting someone. And I don't expect ours too. I do, however, prefer that my relationship have at least SOME passion left. I can't remember the last time we just went absolutely crazy and fought each other all the way to the bedroom, unable to even hit the bed before getting crazy turned on (see why I didn't want to talk about this with family?) And I know that's not just his fault, I'm sure I've become boring in bed to him too. But I don't think it's that I'm just getting too old or losing my sex drive, it's still very much alive. I just crave something different and interesting.

Other than the passion-factor, there are other things I wonder about. Example: our dispositions are SO different. I stay happy pretty much all the time, it takes some major shit hitting the fan before my mood is soured. He, on the other hand, lets every fucking thing ruin his day and it brings me down. I find myself feeling miserable just because he does, when I otherwise would have been in a perfect mood. He's also not as socially inclined as I am. I don't have the desire to be out on the town every night, I actually don't even like hanging out at bars or clubs. But do like to go over to friend's houses or to concerts or even just for a walk in the park, while he is always more interested in staying home.

So my question for you all is this: Is it beyond repair? I am still very much in love with him and the last thing on this earth I want to do is hurt someone whom I care so much for. But if we're too different, isn't it time we just go our separate ways? Does this sound like a typical relationship that needs an exciting boost and more effort on both our parts to be saved, or does it sound like I'm kidding myself trying to make something work that never will?

Thank you so much to anyone who actually read all or part if this. I'm really torn right now and ANY advice would be appreciated.