[verklingen]

every heard the phrase "what goes around, comes around"?

you're an expression of source energy, an angel of God: whatever you want to consider yourself, you are eternally supported by the infinity of all other expressions and angels (remember that even satan is an angel). there is nothing in your experience other than your self and the relation you choose to whatever other expressions you engage. due to our linear method of assessing and integrating experience, the total effects of those engagements are fragmented and delayed along a line.

so for example, say you punch someone in the face. right now you'll feel your fist against their cheek, and you'll go about your way thinking that's the end of it. but you're really punching you! your modes of thought and assessment have only made it appear to you that you are punching something outside of you. but remember, in all your experience there is only you and your relations to the Infinite. . . and since you choose how you relate to people, that ultimately makes them a part of you! they are their own person, but your experience of them is a part of you, a part of who you are. so it is really only you, punching you.

in death you are forced out of your linear mode of thought, and the delusion of punching "someone else" fades away. you remember that you operate within a closed system, and immediately the other half of the experiential equation rushes to meet you. in linearity, feelings are one-sided. an analogy would be throwing a rubber ball to the ground and having it stay there. when this delusion can no longer be maintained, such as in death, all the balls you've thrown come bouncing back. there's no punishment or divine retribution in this, it's mere physics: the mechanics of reality.

there's nothing to be afraid of. . . ever.