[SweetSativa]

Some things about some drugs are good (the light that they can shed on things that need to change for instance).

Almost everyone is addicted to something, to be honest. Sometimes it's a destructive behavior and sometimes it's a substance. You can change it but you can't hate the part of yourself that is addicted because it's part of you. It may be (not making assumptions... just generalizing my own experience) that this is the part that needs the most love. It's that part that doesn't think he can be anything different and the part that SEEMS stronger is telling him that he is right and that he's worthless (still generalizing, I hope I don't offend... this is the way that I am/ was).

When I went to college the first time I drank like a friggin' fish and slept with everyone and anyone who was around, partied all the time. My grades were bad (coulda been worse but they weren't good). I'm 35 now and back in school. I made deans honor roll this semester, have a house, a husband of 14 years, and two beautiful children. That little 'good for nothing' is getting smaller and smaller. There came a time when I had to ask myself how long I could live that way. I certainly didn't want to do it forever. Also, you know where your potential lies and if you don't, ask for answers and they'll come to you.

Sorry...lol. This may not help... but it's what helped me. I had to overcome the conclusions that I had formed about myself a really long time ago (and am still working on it)... some as early as toddler years. They've been there a long time, it's difficult not to believe them anymore.