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al-Mu'akhkhir · 06-01-2009, 06:39 AM

I think I'm beginning to see more and more the "error of my ways". I dunno if a mod would be so kind as to revive the thread... I believe it was the very last one that I made in G&S, it seems to have disappeared in the great thread loss of '09.

There's no real reason that I can't hang out with her other than I'm presently unaware of her schedule (last I heard she was going back to get her hs diploma and then to post-secondary education).

I dunno. I have some sort of strange anxiety surrounding reconnecting with people (as an example, I once did not talk to my biological mother for 6 months, upon being urged to reconnect with her by my therapist, I was unable to sleep for a couple days and threw up probably 9 or 10 times during those two days).

My parents are more like normal people more than loved ones, if that makes sense to you.. Like new people that you've met: you can't quite invest all your trust in them yet.. yadda yadda. It's like they're all stuck in the realm of new acquaintances. If that makes any sense.

I suppose I could be lonely, though I suppose this is making me reconsider what I would define as lonely (insert shallow definition of loneliness here).

06-01-2009, 06:39 AM	#11 (permalink)
al-Mu'akhkhir Onion Head Bastid Status: Offline Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: in some pussy Posts: 3,013 Thanks: 294 Thanked 189 Times in 151 Posts	I think I'm beginning to see more and more the "error of my ways". I dunno if a mod would be so kind as to revive the thread... I believe it was the very last one that I made in G&S, it seems to have disappeared in the great thread loss of '09. There's no real reason that I can't hang out with her other than I'm presently unaware of her schedule (last I heard she was going back to get her hs diploma and then to post-secondary education). I dunno. I have some sort of strange anxiety surrounding reconnecting with people (as an example, I once did not talk to my biological mother for 6 months, upon being urged to reconnect with her by my therapist, I was unable to sleep for a couple days and threw up probably 9 or 10 times during those two days). My parents are more like normal people more than loved ones, if that makes sense to you.. Like new people that you've met: you can't quite invest all your trust in them yet.. yadda yadda. It's like they're all stuck in the realm of new acquaintances. If that makes any sense. I suppose I could be lonely, though I suppose this is making me reconsider what I would define as lonely (insert shallow definition of loneliness here). __________________