Hi Ali,
I just want to say I love you man, and what you are experiencing is okay, and there is nothing wrong with you. Things might not feel right, but there is no 'normal' way to express life. If more people opened up about what was really weighing on their hearts and mind we all might feel alittle better about our oddities.
What you are feeling is ok.
A few questions:
What do YOU think the dream meant?
How many times have you had similiar feelings?
Did your friendship go sour with her?
I know you are struggling with not smoking as well, atleast you were, does that weigh on you at all? I remember you saying you pretty much HAVE to quit to live. That has to be hard to consider.
What was the main 'issue' for you in theropy?
As always, You can PM me and we can talk there. My wife tells me I am a natural counseler and she IS actually a counseler, of whom I consult and bounce ideas with about you all on Yahooka, just to reflect what I want to say and see if she has anything to add.
So PLEASE feel free to open up to me deeply. You, and you all, always have the deepest attention of my heart. I would like to talk with you if you'd like. This is the closest I can help you personally to getting 'into' theropy.
Also I used Aim Msn Yahoo and Skype, for a variety of reason I have so many. Mostly to talk to my family here is why I opted to sign up for 2 of them. I really care man. Truely honestly. While I can't perhaps do something now for you, this second, today while I'm at work, when I'm walking around listening to my breath and feeling the touch of life, I will focus on Loving Kindness and You, as my working, not walking
, meditation.
Perhaps you would do well to try to find a quiet place to sit, read your Gita or something calming for while and then just try to sit and 'watch' the breath for a while and see if anything insightful, thought wise, passes through your mind while you are feeling the cool calming air pass over your top lip and past the tip of your nose.
Much much Metta,
SageTree
