[xMSx]

well. I'm a fairly young man, and to be honest while I have been in a serious relationship or two, the love I've given to women has been purely physical. "notches in the bedpost" if you will.

but. I think that she's one of the only people I've ever loved simply for who they are, not what's between their legs. up until today I had thought I quelled any initial romantic notions I had about her, and even moreso when she got engaged.

perhaps I was only tricking myself into thinking this.

I don't love my parents (long story). I don't love my family. I don't love my friends. I like my parents, family and friends. But I've never had a connection with anyone as deep as that between her and me (this seems to have been a mutual feeling, I felt she was sincere in agreeing on it).

*sigh*

It sucks losing someone you connect to on an emotional level. Perhaps this "notch on the bedpost" complex was destroyed by this one that got away, and when she did get away, it hurt you because of your strong emotional ties