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Ehh, life for me has been stressful, but not as stressful as it once had been. Even then i could smoke and forget about my problems! Now, its just like... do i really want to smoke? No i dont think think so....
The last time i smoked weed was 2 days ago, maybe about 3 blunts total throughout the day. I was with my best friend, her brother and his friend. I began to get anti - social, and couldnt think of anything worth saying. I felt as if when i opened my mouth, i was going to say something gay, and they would laugh at me. I absolutely cannot be around alot of people when im high, i just start to freak out and wanting to get away. I want to be a thousand miles away.... It kinda makes me mad that weed makes me feel this way. If im only thinking about one thing that stresses me out a little bit, after i smoke, it will turn into a million things that stress me out. I worry about things. Its crazy.
Soo.. i'm going to smoke me a J tonight before i go to bed... and i know im going to freak out...
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