[SageTree]

No time to waste on asking yourself whats wrong.
You need to ask yourself what is, was, or would be right!

I find people often look for the problem before they look for the answer.

What I would reccomend is not focusing on what went wrong, what you could have done, etc. What I would focus on is what was right, what good happened, why.

Sometimes people look back at their ex's during times of loneliness and hard-ship. I think they do this because they just want to "go back", to when things were "good". This is achievable and happens sometimes, however, when you "go back" you have to realize memories cannot come twice. You cannot recreate the past, and re-enactments are meant for once a year not a whole year.

So find what let's you be the normal you, what keeps you going, what good influences you. Engolf your mind with these ideas and things. Find your edges before you try to fit yourself back into the puzzle of love. If your nodes still fits into her heart then by god go for it, by whatever means feasible. If you figure out something more about yourself, go out and find someone else who makes you feel the way you should.

But most of all, be real, with yourself. The realer you keep yourself the better things come to you. If your gonna put up a false gate at any moment, expect to have unwanted key's prying at your handle. Ya dig?

This is a nice post. I especially like the paragraph after the bolded lines. Thanks for the reply Mydriasis, I believe you are an awesome new member. Keep the good vibes flowing.

I agree that taking a proactive positive coarse of action is what is going to clear things up for you Al. I hope that you get ahold of her and get to talk because I feel that right now there is alot of anxiety of what might be, try not to dwell in that place of uncertainty and be proud of the fact that you are trying to get ahold of her to talk.

take care and talk with you soon,
Sage