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Theres sorta a bunch of things bugging me.
And yeah i know what you mean about living in a small town, as do i.

You should address these issues that are bothering you before you light up again. Smoking is not usually going to rid you of your issues, they are there, and still very prevalent. Get a hold of your life my friend, from there its will all improve. For now, I would quit. Its not worth the struggle, like HFB said, not worth playing with your sanity.