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i went to a school with 20,000 highly diverse peers who should have similiar interests and i couldnt make a real friend. i used hard drugs just to go to class and feel like i fit in. i dunno, i am a nice person i just have a hard time relating to people and am confused by how i am perceived and worry too much about what should come naturally.
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Wow can I relate. Your prolly the type of person that is actually unique and thinks a lot(you prolly think "too much"). Which is why doing hard drugs(esp benzos or opies) very appealing if I got that wrong then I'm sorry for assuming. It's hard to be a nice guy in these modern times, I hear it's more appreciated when you get older(I have no idea how old you are or if that's even relevant).
Young people are busy climbing up and down social ladders, and getting things that they want. I too frequently have been used, but I've turned it around in my head. I have gotten into literally hundreds of one way relationships from high-school to being a burnout to enrolling back into college.
I find that the better of my friends have come in the strangest of ways. And left in even stranger ways. But irregardless, friendships in most cases tend to just be temporary. So maybe your looking out in the big picture to much with the people that you meet. Not to say every shady punk is worth kicking it with and trusting with your house key. But your a human being, probably pretty normal, you said your a nice person, you can make friends you prolly just need to attack some self-image issues, and understand most people just suck.
My problem is I just never know how to approach a new person, and in most cases wait for them to approach me. It's funny how avoidant people are even if you see them every day or sit next to them in class. One thing I tend to do in school to strike-up some conversations is just sit next to someone who is just there for school. If you miss a day or come in late ask them if you could copy the notes or anything. I also find all the professors who smoke cigarettes in-between classes and just say hi to them small talk, which later turns into cool professor conversations. I tend to relate to older people for some reason more than people my age.
Sorry for making a ton of assumptions about who you are. I'm trying to lend some advice whether it's applicable or not, I went off on a limb.
Edit: It isn't pathetic to aspire to be well-liked. We're pack animals that is what we're all about. Don't look down on yourself, cuz if you can't see you for how awesome you are, are you even expecting someone else too? (I've been there for sure)
