Originally Posted by scottishbastard
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And yeah...with opiates it's not a question of "will" you get addicted...it's "when" you get addicted.
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That's the best way to sum up opiates in 1 sentence.
It's nice to know atleast someone else here has been through what I have so I feel alittle better about myself. It happened a while ago but I used to be really hard on myself about it because it made me feel like such a failure. But now whenever I see how far I've and others around me have came since then it makes me feel good about the choice I made to get myself help.
I do feel as though it will stick with me forever. I was smoking and decided to pop a friends adderall since I'm getting that prescribed soon and I took another today at work and got wired and already I'm getting the old mental calculator seeing how I could work adderall into my weekly paycheck. The scary part is I didn't even realize how I was doing that until after and I was taken aback and told my friend like holey shit I just went through my old ways of figuring out how many pills I can get this week and how much more I can get if I skimp on paying some things today and tomorrow. I can't really put it into words since I'm baked, drunk, crashed from the adderall, ambien'd, and just all around tired haha.