These are just thoughts and reflections on the days going by(e).
Forgive us our debts as we have forgiven our debtors.....
Posted 10-22-2009 at 10:35 AM by SageTree
So that is the line from the Lord's prayer in Matthew 6:12
A story:
Then Peter came to Jesus and asked ,"Lord how many times share I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?
Jesus answered," I tell you not seven times, but seventy-seven times.
Therefore the kingdom of heaven is a king who wanted to settle the accounts with his servants. As he began settlement, a man who owned him ten thousand talents was brought to him. Since he couldn't repay the debt, the master ordered that his wife and children be sold to pay the debt.
The servant fell to his knees before him ' Be patient with me' he begged, ' and I will pay back everything.' The servant's master took pity on him, canceled the debt and let him go.
But when that servant went out, he found one of his fellow servants who own him a hundred denarri. He grabbed him and began to choke him. ' Pay back what you owe me!' he demanded.
His fellow servant fell to his knees and begged him ,' Be patient with me, and I will pay you back.'
But he refused. Instead, he went off and had the man thrown into prison until he could pay the debt. When the other servants saw what had happened, they were greatly distressed and went and told their master everything that had happened.
Then the master called the servant in. ' You wicked servant,' he said,' I canceled all that debt of yours because you begged me to. Shouldn't you have had mercy on your fellow servant just as I had on you?' In anger his master turned to him over to the jailers to be tortured, until he should pay back all that he owned.
This is how my Heavenly Father will treat each one of you unless you forgive your brothers and sisters from your heart"
Matthew 18: 21-35
This is a story of mercy and forgiveness. Some of the greatest gifts that we all have in ourselves, if we look deeply with compassion and love. I just wished to share this is with you all. I really don't have a question to pose.
There are many instance of forgiveness in my life, but one that has had a profound impact in my life was forgiving my Father for the way he treated our family growing up. I didn't talk with him for almost 5 years of my life other than once a year when he would call.
One day in the shower, I do most of my best ah ha-ing there, I thought to myself ' I have never held a grudge in my life, other than with this man, so why should I start with my own Father. ?' The realationship had bothered me for years and years, while not talking to him seemed to be the right thing for my pride, it was the wrong thing for my true nature, which is to love. That evening I called my Dad and explained to him kindly why I had chosen not to talk with him for so long, and that I was deeply effected by how he acted in my life and that sometimes in suprising ways it still greatly effected my thought processes. I said that I knew how his homelife was growing up and that he wasn't to the degree his Father before him was and that was commendable, and that his struggles for 'normalicy' must have been more than mine. I understood that those where the tools that he had to raise us with and I am sorry for the hurt child within him, and that I'm sure that he did the best that he could and that I forgave him. I told him my thought process and that I thought today would be a good day to start having a realationship again.
He said that he too had been through the same thing with his Father growing up and this it took years of distance, for him to come to know his Father again. And that he knew in his heart why I hadn't talked to him in so long. That is what hurt his heart the most, is that he had done the same thing his Dad had done, and that was hurt his family and drive them away. I reiterated that I forgave him and I could only imagine that it must be hard to raise kids begining at 22, let alone the challeges that face him personally. He had spent many lonly years wondering about us, and I said that it truely tore me apart as well, staying committed to my pride. And that it had gotten neither of us far.
For me this was the begining of something new with in myself as well. After that time I was much more forgiving to many people in my life, mostly myself, who I was always the hardest on. Having compassion for other can be challenging but cultivating that to yourself is the hardest.
I've done some things I consider crumby in my life and people have forgiven me for that, which I am thankful. This ties into the story for me because once I realized that I had the capacity to forgive something so large in my life, that it became so easy to come to awareness, and have compassion for the reasons that people make mistakes, and they truely deserve forgiveness and all the love and support you can give them. This was my lesson in forgiveness, in realation to the moral of this story.
I'd like to say that my Dad and I had a burgoning new realationship and maybe we have. I have always lived far from my home town as soon as I could, maybe not for healthy reasons, but now its just a life style. I do call my Dad more than I used to and we have alot to talk about now. This Sept I sent him a birthday card of a man standing on the dock of a lake with the sun is coming up. It made me think of him and how he looked after a night of night fishing, and how he looked over that lake in the early morning hours, and how he came alive in the woods and that he tought me that sanctuary it provides for healing. Those truely where good times with my Dad, and I wanted to tell him that there are good memories in my head as well and that he is important to me and that I love him. He said that story I wrote in his card made him feel like the man on the dock looking out on Creation, with hope and love. I don't get to spend alot of time with Dad because of the distance, but I know now that he thinks about me everytime that he goes to the woods or sees a sunset that he has taught me something and given me a gift. That is a small refuge for my Dad to live in, and ultimatly seems to make him feel better about our realationship, or atleast where he stands with me. So now we always talk about our trips and share pictures. He even helped my buy a pair of snow shoes. Lately he has been typing me emails so full of love I couldn't have imagined that it was in my Father's heart, and that truely makes me feel good too.
The moral I guess is that forgiveness is the beging to a realationship, or rekindling. Forgiveness doesn't mean forgetting, it just means setting that aside so you can move on. Trust takes time to get to , but you can't reach that with out taking the first step towards it. And in this story of Jesus, what he is teaching to me is that the Biblical, "ALL POWERFUL GOD"! Even though He doesn't need to, He limits His power to forgive little old me, for the things that I do.
Do I believe in hell and heaven......yes, metaphorically, like a Karma, the consciousness following and arising, good and bad, later, in this life. I have been to both because with out forgiveness life for me was hell. And the new love that arose for that has been a heaven sent on Earth to me and has brought so much peace and furthuring of the love that I know I can give. Because if the "All Powerful" can take time for me, then it's with in me as a part of God to be able to do that for others, and that I am judged and forgiven by my peers ,who also share that same piece of "God", so I am being judged by the same measure that I give out.
Its like when someone says 'I was just as nice to that guy as he was to me' Imagine if you were nicer no matter what. What could come of compassion, that pre-forgiveness that people are doing the best with what they can, or what they have to give, or the consciousness in which they do and don't live. People can only reach the capacity they are aware of, so why not help create a new reality for people by being that truest actualized human you can be. The Christ/Krishna/Buddah-Consciousness is with in you because it is with in God and God is within All, us and them, it is the Dharma, the 'laws' of why the cookie crumbles the way it does.
This is my belief and what I take from the story. I don't believe that God is like its said in the Bible to the literal sense, but the Power of the allagory of God, in this story resonates with as much power as is explained in the literal translation. And I can only reason that if people can think to put this Perfect Idea into words and I can only reason that it IS a good way to live, Do I really care to what degree its true of what God is? I have a realationship with what I feel is union with the universe, so these stories speak to my heart mind and soul.
Thanks for reading that all folks. This became rather long, but is a story I wanted to share with you all, about myself, my life and the spiritual gifts that are constantly being revealed to me on my Path to Actualizing my Humaness and the Pure Potentiality of Perfection I carry in me every day.
A story:
Then Peter came to Jesus and asked ,"Lord how many times share I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?
Jesus answered," I tell you not seven times, but seventy-seven times.
Therefore the kingdom of heaven is a king who wanted to settle the accounts with his servants. As he began settlement, a man who owned him ten thousand talents was brought to him. Since he couldn't repay the debt, the master ordered that his wife and children be sold to pay the debt.
The servant fell to his knees before him ' Be patient with me' he begged, ' and I will pay back everything.' The servant's master took pity on him, canceled the debt and let him go.
But when that servant went out, he found one of his fellow servants who own him a hundred denarri. He grabbed him and began to choke him. ' Pay back what you owe me!' he demanded.
His fellow servant fell to his knees and begged him ,' Be patient with me, and I will pay you back.'
But he refused. Instead, he went off and had the man thrown into prison until he could pay the debt. When the other servants saw what had happened, they were greatly distressed and went and told their master everything that had happened.
Then the master called the servant in. ' You wicked servant,' he said,' I canceled all that debt of yours because you begged me to. Shouldn't you have had mercy on your fellow servant just as I had on you?' In anger his master turned to him over to the jailers to be tortured, until he should pay back all that he owned.
This is how my Heavenly Father will treat each one of you unless you forgive your brothers and sisters from your heart"
Matthew 18: 21-35
This is a story of mercy and forgiveness. Some of the greatest gifts that we all have in ourselves, if we look deeply with compassion and love. I just wished to share this is with you all. I really don't have a question to pose.
There are many instance of forgiveness in my life, but one that has had a profound impact in my life was forgiving my Father for the way he treated our family growing up. I didn't talk with him for almost 5 years of my life other than once a year when he would call.
One day in the shower, I do most of my best ah ha-ing there, I thought to myself ' I have never held a grudge in my life, other than with this man, so why should I start with my own Father. ?' The realationship had bothered me for years and years, while not talking to him seemed to be the right thing for my pride, it was the wrong thing for my true nature, which is to love. That evening I called my Dad and explained to him kindly why I had chosen not to talk with him for so long, and that I was deeply effected by how he acted in my life and that sometimes in suprising ways it still greatly effected my thought processes. I said that I knew how his homelife was growing up and that he wasn't to the degree his Father before him was and that was commendable, and that his struggles for 'normalicy' must have been more than mine. I understood that those where the tools that he had to raise us with and I am sorry for the hurt child within him, and that I'm sure that he did the best that he could and that I forgave him. I told him my thought process and that I thought today would be a good day to start having a realationship again.
He said that he too had been through the same thing with his Father growing up and this it took years of distance, for him to come to know his Father again. And that he knew in his heart why I hadn't talked to him in so long. That is what hurt his heart the most, is that he had done the same thing his Dad had done, and that was hurt his family and drive them away. I reiterated that I forgave him and I could only imagine that it must be hard to raise kids begining at 22, let alone the challeges that face him personally. He had spent many lonly years wondering about us, and I said that it truely tore me apart as well, staying committed to my pride. And that it had gotten neither of us far.
For me this was the begining of something new with in myself as well. After that time I was much more forgiving to many people in my life, mostly myself, who I was always the hardest on. Having compassion for other can be challenging but cultivating that to yourself is the hardest.
I've done some things I consider crumby in my life and people have forgiven me for that, which I am thankful. This ties into the story for me because once I realized that I had the capacity to forgive something so large in my life, that it became so easy to come to awareness, and have compassion for the reasons that people make mistakes, and they truely deserve forgiveness and all the love and support you can give them. This was my lesson in forgiveness, in realation to the moral of this story.
I'd like to say that my Dad and I had a burgoning new realationship and maybe we have. I have always lived far from my home town as soon as I could, maybe not for healthy reasons, but now its just a life style. I do call my Dad more than I used to and we have alot to talk about now. This Sept I sent him a birthday card of a man standing on the dock of a lake with the sun is coming up. It made me think of him and how he looked after a night of night fishing, and how he looked over that lake in the early morning hours, and how he came alive in the woods and that he tought me that sanctuary it provides for healing. Those truely where good times with my Dad, and I wanted to tell him that there are good memories in my head as well and that he is important to me and that I love him. He said that story I wrote in his card made him feel like the man on the dock looking out on Creation, with hope and love. I don't get to spend alot of time with Dad because of the distance, but I know now that he thinks about me everytime that he goes to the woods or sees a sunset that he has taught me something and given me a gift. That is a small refuge for my Dad to live in, and ultimatly seems to make him feel better about our realationship, or atleast where he stands with me. So now we always talk about our trips and share pictures. He even helped my buy a pair of snow shoes. Lately he has been typing me emails so full of love I couldn't have imagined that it was in my Father's heart, and that truely makes me feel good too.
The moral I guess is that forgiveness is the beging to a realationship, or rekindling. Forgiveness doesn't mean forgetting, it just means setting that aside so you can move on. Trust takes time to get to , but you can't reach that with out taking the first step towards it. And in this story of Jesus, what he is teaching to me is that the Biblical, "ALL POWERFUL GOD"! Even though He doesn't need to, He limits His power to forgive little old me, for the things that I do.
Do I believe in hell and heaven......yes, metaphorically, like a Karma, the consciousness following and arising, good and bad, later, in this life. I have been to both because with out forgiveness life for me was hell. And the new love that arose for that has been a heaven sent on Earth to me and has brought so much peace and furthuring of the love that I know I can give. Because if the "All Powerful" can take time for me, then it's with in me as a part of God to be able to do that for others, and that I am judged and forgiven by my peers ,who also share that same piece of "God", so I am being judged by the same measure that I give out.
Its like when someone says 'I was just as nice to that guy as he was to me' Imagine if you were nicer no matter what. What could come of compassion, that pre-forgiveness that people are doing the best with what they can, or what they have to give, or the consciousness in which they do and don't live. People can only reach the capacity they are aware of, so why not help create a new reality for people by being that truest actualized human you can be. The Christ/Krishna/Buddah-Consciousness is with in you because it is with in God and God is within All, us and them, it is the Dharma, the 'laws' of why the cookie crumbles the way it does.
This is my belief and what I take from the story. I don't believe that God is like its said in the Bible to the literal sense, but the Power of the allagory of God, in this story resonates with as much power as is explained in the literal translation. And I can only reason that if people can think to put this Perfect Idea into words and I can only reason that it IS a good way to live, Do I really care to what degree its true of what God is? I have a realationship with what I feel is union with the universe, so these stories speak to my heart mind and soul.
Thanks for reading that all folks. This became rather long, but is a story I wanted to share with you all, about myself, my life and the spiritual gifts that are constantly being revealed to me on my Path to Actualizing my Humaness and the Pure Potentiality of Perfection I carry in me every day.
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