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Terry · 10-03-2009, 10:34 AM

So I've been running an online business with my stepdad for the last year and the money's been pretty decent. I don't enjoy the work because I have to work with my stepfather, who is overbearing at best, but it beats a 9-5 job, that is until recently.

We had a falling out over some missent merchandise and he wouldn't let it go even when I offered to pay for the stuff we lost, as there is a chance it was my fault. I eventually just said fuck this, pay me my last check and good luck.

I really shot myself in the foot quitting like that, rent is coming up and I'm behind on electricity, but I don't want to work with my family anymore that's for sure.

The guy's decent enough these days. I used to get into a lot of trouble in high school and he'd kick my ass but not to a point that I'd call it abuse or anything. It's just that since then, he and his kids have kind of looked at me and my sister as the "black sheep" but ever since Chelle left the state I've been getting the negative attention. His real son is a shallow, pussy obsessed meathead to be completely honest. He once stole 500 bucks from my stepdad and now they joke about it, whereas I never asked him for cent one since I moved out five years ago, and he's always on my case.

Mostly it's harmless ball breaking but he can say some hurtful shit sometimes with out even thinking twice about what he said. Honestly it's to the point where I want to just not talk to my step family for awhile because whenever I see them I leave feeling drained and pissed off and nothing I say will change his behavior.

Basically I'm freaking because I'm out on my ass again with nothing to show for the effort I put in for the last year, and I'm starting to feel this is my lot in life. I can't ever catch a break or have something go my way and it feels like my anxiety and money worries are going to overwhelm me.

I dunno, I guess I just need some validation to not think I'm a useless waste of space. I should go back to school, I excelled in my writing and classwork at college but I was discouraged by the weekend warrior mentality of the fucking straight out of high school kids whose rich parents foot the bill when I get to be saddled with even more debt once I graduate.

Maybe I should move, or join the Peace Corp, get the fuck out of this town instead of always living in the same rut because I'm too comfortable and scared to try something new.

verklingen · 10-03-2009, 10:52 AM

damn terry that's rough man, i can understand needing some validation. i work with family and it can be trying to say the least, though i can only imagine the exacerbation caused by having a stepfather like that. if he really wasn't going to let some shit like that go it was probably best for you to move on, but that's easy to say when you're not staring down bills. i hope you figure it out man, and i'm confident you will.

i wish i could offer some more tangible advice, but just keep your chin up to keep from missing opportunities. attitude counts a lot, maybe the most

Mikey · 10-03-2009, 10:58 AM

Sorry to hear you`ve hit a rough patch Terry, is it too late to make ammends with your stepdad and try to get some work back? You mentioned he's been decent recently.

As much as it sucks you said it beats regular work and money's decent, maybe it's time to swallow your pride.

If not then just try to get any work for the time being, catchup on bills and rent and seriously re-evaluate where you are in life and which direction you want to go in.

Sorry I'm not much help, but my thoughts and good vibes are with you.

№1 · 10-03-2009, 11:37 AM

Fuck sucking up to the dude, if you ran a business before, you probably still can.
Figure out how to do that, you hated it because you had to work with family, so stomp out on your own. Maybe you'll kill two birds with one stone, out of the rut, onto something new but still kind of familiar.

Steal every one of his clients as well, makes for a fun Thanksgiving

turmaline · 10-03-2009, 01:50 PM

Yeah, start up your own business.

my_scatterheart · 10-03-2009, 02:28 PM

Peace Corps usually want you to have gone through school

osirus2020 · 10-03-2009, 05:05 PM

I like No1. Start a competing business and use his secrets against him. That's such a good plan it's almost like a comic book.

Waves · 10-05-2009, 03:35 PM

...or use this as an opportunity to branch out and find what you really love to do in life? you like to write? go back to school and write my man.

DubStyle311 · 10-23-2009, 11:26 PM

Good luck, bud. You'll get through it. You gotta finish school though. Take care of business cus you dont wanna have these kinda troubles 10 or 20 years from now.

farmergiles · 10-24-2009, 03:58 AM

Agree totally with No1, sounds like you quite enjoyed the online business, you must have picked up some ideas about how to do it yourself.

Mikey · 10-25-2009, 11:01 AM

update?

yo. · 10-25-2009, 11:12 AM

Originally Posted by Terry

Maybe I should move, or join the Peace Corp, get the fuck out of this town instead of always living in the same rut because I'm too comfortable and scared to try something new.

hike through Alaska, supertramp.