I think I'm losing my mind, and I mean it in the most serious way a person can.

[FuSoYa]

Lately, my mind has been playing mind games with me. I have feelings of disphoria triggered by slight worry. The worry accumulates for no reason, and takes over. I used to have this feeling if I took one hit too many off of a bowl, but now it's happening when I'm completely fine and sober.

The most severe example I can give you is this. Intense anxiety hits me when I drive, simply because one has to always be aware of their surroundings to ensure the safety of themselves and those around them. Well, the anxiety hits me for the most idiotic reason. The anxiety is over the anxiety itself, in a paradoxial way. Before driving to work, I think "oh no, I feel anxiety. It's going to interfere with my driving." The anxiety grows worse, and soon I become overly-conscious of my breathing, and it no longer feels like a subconcscious function, but rather a function that I have to control myself. Problem is, it feels like I don't know HOW to control it in order to keep myself from passing out from lack of oxygen. I mean, it's like I KNOW I won't pass out while I'm on the freeway ( which scares me most of all ), but I feel myself getting dizzier and dizzier as I drive. This anxiety is so pointless, and I know it, but I can't control it. It takes over, and it's literally anxiety over absolutely nothing. I feel this sharp feeling of intense fear in my stomach, my heart races, and I feel surges of terror ( comparable to in horror movies, when something "startling" happens ).

The only conclusion I can come to is that I'm losing my mind. I'll lay on my bed, staring at the walls, the blinds, the ceiling, my own hands...and as I look at who and what I am, and the harshness of reality, I become scared...like nothing I can do at that point will undo the fear and forboding within me.

If I go to a psychologist, is there anything he can do to help me regain sanity or am I on a downward spiral?

I just want help. I don't want to feel alone anymore. I want to return to normal. Something needs to be done, but I don't want to bring up these issues in front of my parents because I know they won't understand. Was it the cannabis that fucked my head up? I just need answers.

[clive]

You should use auto-suggestion techniques, every time you feel anxiety just ask yourself why you're feeling anxious, and suggest to your mind that feeling anxious about this is stupid, if you keep suggesting this to yourself when the anxiety occurs your mind will eventually accept it as truth. maybe

[split.therapy]

Seeking help is a good idea. Meditation,yoga,tai chi, anything to help your focus and mental discipline is a good thing. If pot is not for you it isn't for you.

[Canuck Wisdom]

I would stop smoking for a few months and then decide how you feel.

Yes a psychiatrist could help you, but I would understand why you would not want to go to one.

[Cloud City]

My suggestion is for you to go to an experienced shrink and fully describe your "severe social anxiety" disorder and all the good and bad things that happen...and when and how they happen. What brings you into the office and why do you think you need help? It sounds like you have some sorting out to do. A good shrink would want to put you on an antidepressant for depression, and klonopin for anxiety.

My son (29 yrs old) has been suffering from severe social anxiety for about four years, and his shrihk put his on Cymbalta for depression and klonopin for the anxiety disorder. My son is now doing very well and for the first time is now looking forward to his upcoming wedding and the birth of his first son/daughter.. Yea, looks like he put the cart before the horse, but in the end, things like that just don't matter.

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As for me peronally, I stick pretty much exclusely to the green medicine ..... and that takes care of me very nicely. I have Diabetes and Hep C so my medical "plate" is heavily laden too. However, I'm just really happy to be alive.......two bouts of severe jaundice in the past 12 months have been especially difficult.......each episode lasts about 3 mos....it makes you itch so bad that you tear the skin right off your body.

So it sounds like you would benefit from seeing a shrink - he'd take care of your meds and then refer you to a pyschologist so you'd have someone very discreet to discuss your issues.



Peace

[Bad dog]

Lay of the drugs, meds, weed, caffiene, sugar and red meat.
Purify your body and it will help your mind.

If you have access or the money for a GOOD therapist, then go.
If not then just allow yourself to have a complete mental breakdown, stay at home for a few months and try to figure out wtf is going on with you.

[_tyranT]

perfectly normal and last month i was a car accident cause my insanity i believe.

i was perfectly fine and sober but then my mind drifted away and i lost control of my car on a straight road and slammed into a tree.

i feel anxiety often especially that tragic day and it really affects my life.

maybe you have add and need some meds or something like me but my mom won't take me to get checked out.

Never let fear control you like it was controlling me for quite some time. exercise is key trust me!!!

best of luck to you, i was off weed for 2 weeks when i got into my wreck which i think might have caused the problem...

how old are you?

even more trippy is i just checked my post count which i never do and it was 666 thats messed up...

[AdmBmb]

i think its just a phase.
i used to have some odd problem that was triggered by my own thoughts also. i used to think about having like a panic attack and i would, i remember posting about it on here ill try and find it.

http://www.yahooka.com/forum/showpos...5&postcount=18

edit: found it. well i had some like phobia of not being able to drink or have water. even though i would tell myself "ok im fine, you can go like 4 whole days without water, don't even think about it fuck it". but i would get cottonmouth like no other and would kinda have a panic attack. not to the point where i didn't keep it to myself because i knew how retarded it looks but it was definiately some sort temporary insanity. i fuckin hated it. but now i havent even thought about it in at least 3 years. it hasnt affected me or even crossed my mind. if this shit can just happen to anyone.... fucking crazy.

ps: and this all started/ended before i tried weed FYI

[osirus2020]

Take some time off everything, go to bed early, just relax.

Might help.

[Mafoo]

how old are you?

i recomend cutting back if not getting off weed for a while.

if youre not feeling well mentally you probly shouldnt be doing any drugs at all.

[LorD420]

I too went through some of these things when I first started smoking herb. Now in retrospect, I can see that it was the transitional phase between realities. Cannabis opens many windows in the mind that were previously treated by the brain as untouchable. Truth isn't always pleasant but it's always necessary. Your psyche needs time to adjust to shedding the 'locks' that the propaganda and terror tactics of the war on drugs have so vehemently pounded into the youth of amerika. It is only when you accept Cannabis use as a NORML part of life, not something to be hidden and ashamed of that we can overcome those conflicting brain signals.

[Renholdër]

prozac

[LorD420]

Cannabis