Sorry you feel like that, sincerely.
I've had those moments as well,
but knowing god is everything
and I'm apart of god.
I've also read spells and invocations,
where the name of the Lord Jesus Christ of Nazareth
was used as protection and assuming commanding role.
The Manly P. Hall Archive Ceremonial Magick and Sorcery
Extract From the Book of Dr. Faust,
Wittenberg, 1524
(An abridged translation from the
original German of a book ordered destroyed.)
"From my youth I followed art and
science and was tireless in my reading of books. Among those which came
to my hand was a volume containing all kinds of invocations and magical
formulae. In this book I discovered information to the effect that a
spirit, whether he be of the fire, the water, the earth or the air, can
be compelled to do the will of a magician capable of controlling him. I
also discovered that according as one spirit has more power than
another, each is adapted for a different operation and each is capable
of producing certain supernatural effects.
At first I had little faith that what was
promised would take place. But at the very first invocation which I
attempted a mighty spirit manifested to me, desiring to know why I had
manifested him. His coming so amazed me that I scarcely knew what to
say, but finally asked him if he would serve me in my magical
investigations. He replied that if certain conditions were agreed upon
he would. The conditions were that I should make a pact with him. This I
did not desire to do, but as in my ignorance I had not protected myself
with a circle and was actually at the mercy of the spiri
"Omnipotent and Eternal God who hath
ordained the whole creation for thy praise and glory and for the
salvation of man, I earnestly beseech thee that thou wouldst send one of
thy spirits of the order of Jupiter, one of the messengers of Zadkiel
whom thou hast appointed governor of thy firmament at the present time,
most faithfully, willingly, and readily to show me these things which I
shall ask, command or require of him, and truly execute my desires.
Nevertheless, O Most Holy God, thy will and not mine be done through JC,
thine only begotten Son our Lord. Amen.
"The Invocation.
[The magician, having properly
consecrated his vestments and utensils and being protected by his
circle, now calls upon the spirits to appear and accede to his demands.]
"Spirits, whose assistance I require,
behold the sign and the very Hallowed Names of God full of power. Obey
the power of this our pentacle; go out your hidden caves and dark
places; cease your hurtful occupations to those unhappy mortals whom
without ceasing you torment; come into this place where the Divine
Goodness has assembled us; be attentive to our orders and known to our
just demands; believe not that your resistance will cause us to abandon
our operations. Nothing can dispense with your obeying us. We command
you by the Mysterious Names Elohe Agla Elohim Adonay Gibort. Amen.
"I call upon thee, Zadkiel, in the Name
of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost, blessed Trinity,
unspeakable Unity.
"I invoke and intreat thee, Zadkiel, in
this hour to attend to the words and conjurations which I shall use this
day by the Holy Names of God Elohe El Elohim Elion Zebaoth Escerehie lah
Adonay Tetragrammaton.
"I conjure thee, I exorcise thee, thou
Spirit Zadkiel, by these Holy Names Hagios O Theos Iscyros Athanatos
Paracletus Agla on Alpha et Omega loth Aglanbroth Abiel Anathiel
Tetragrammaton: And by all other great and glorious, holy and
unspeakable, mysterious, mighty, powerful, incomprehensible Names of
God, that you attend unto the words of my mouth, and send unto me Pabiel
or other of your ministering, serving Spirits, who may show me such
things as I shall demand of him in the Name of the Father, and of the
Son, and of the Holy Ghost. Amen.
"’I have called thee in the Name of
Jesus of Nazareth at whose Name every knee doth bow in heaven, earth,
and hell, and every tongue shall confess there is no name like unto the
Name of Jesus, who hath given power unto man to bind and to loose all
things in his most Holy Name, yea even unto those that trust in his
salvation.
"’Art thou the messenger of Zadkiel?’
[And the spirit shall answer:] ‘Yes. ‘
"’Wilt thou confirm thyself unto me at
this time and henceforth reveal all things unto me that I shall desire
to know, and teach me how I may increase in wisdom and knowledge and
show unto me all the secrets of the Magic Art, and of all liberal
sciences, that I may thereby set forth the glory of Almighty God?’ [And
the spirit shall answer:] ‘Yes.’
"’Then I pray thee give and confirm thy
character unto me whereby I may call thee at all times, and also swear
unto me this oath and I will religiously keep my vow and covenant unto
Almighty God and will courteously receive thee at all times where thou
dost appear unto me.’
"License to Depart.
"’Forasmuch as thou comest in peace and
quietness and hath answered unto my petitions, I give humble and hearty
thanks unto Almighty God in whose Name I called and thou camest, and now
thou mayest depart in peace unto thine orders and return unto me again
at what time soever I shall call thee by thine oath, or by thy name or
by thine order, or by thine office which is granted thee from the
creator, and the power of God be with me and thee and upon the whole
issue of God, Amen.
"’Glory be to the Father, and to the
Son, and to the Holy Ghost.’
That's my opinion anyway. We want to believe that there is a spiritual side of life but I don't think we really want to see proof. When you grow up with it as a normal part of life... it doesn't freak you out. Although, there have been things that have freaked me out... most of them have happened quite in the physical... crazy kid stalking me... that type of thing. These are things that can harm you. As far as the spirit and people afraid for their soul... let me just ask... how can you trick the light? 
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