Im Done......

matthewmunari · 05-13-2008, 07:30 PM

its too hard to find a vein, waiting for the connect is drama, so............

Im done slammin....

AND I SINCERELY ASK GOD TO HELP ME GIVE UP THE DESIRE......

matthew

and I need a sponsor!!!!

Epic · 05-13-2008, 08:18 PM

I wish I could successfully quit. Part of the problem is the depression I've been dealing with for countless years. On opiates all my cares are gone. Without them, I start feeling depressed and shitty again.

The best of luck to you. I find thinking about all the shitty things that come from being on the needle makes it a little easier than always reminding yourself of how amazing the rush is. IE: Always having to hide your marked up arms, withdrawl's that are way worse, waking up sick (depending on how deep you are in), and having your life have to constantly revolve around 1 thing. Not to mention the harm you do/have done to your body, even if it doesn't show.

matthewmunari · 05-13-2008, 08:25 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Epic

I wish I could successfully quit. Part of the problem is the depression I've been dealing with for countless years. On opiates all my cares are gone. Without them, I start feeling depressed and shitty again.

The best of luck to you. I find thinking about all the shitty things that come from being on the needle makes it a little easier than always reminding yourself of how amazing the rush is. IE: Always having to hide your marked up arms, withdrawl's that are way worse, waking up sick (depending on how deep you are in), and having your life have to constantly revolve around 1 thing. Not to mention the harm you do/have done to your body, even if it doesn't show.

the prob is i have chronic pain in my leg.....so i have to take my meds as prescribed....the hard part is the mental addiction & hooking up w/ my dealer... thanx for the support, seriously....cuz this is a life or death matter...and i don't want a 13 year old boy growing up knowing his dad was piece of shit junkie that i am...thanks tho, seriously...and i'm tracked up like a tattoo artist workin on me w/ a dull ass needle...

matthew

Porcelain · 05-13-2008, 08:48 PM

Isn't there any way you could find alternative meds to deal with your problem without it continuing to feed your addicition? It's pretty hard for me to understand cuz I'm one of those people who can dick around with drugs and drop them like a dime at any given time but I see my BF struggling with shotting up 3 times a day for the past couple months and it's really hard for me to find any solution which doesn't involve your will to quit alone.

tedkennedy · 05-13-2008, 09:23 PM

i can relate that it is a pain in ass getting dope. for the longest time i fucking spent mad long trying to get connects and wasting my time and money focusing on one thing.

honestly though, since u have OCs you should be just fine

life sucks with or without the D, so just quit. its not helpin ya

ya got a heart of gold, just needs a bit of polishing off the tarnish

WildWill · 05-13-2008, 09:41 PM

Good luck man - stay safe and get healthy!

matthewmunari · 05-13-2008, 10:57 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by tedkennedy;51583TD01 3

i can relate that it is a pain in ass getting dope. for the longest time i fucking spent mad long trying to get connects and wasting my time and money focusing on one thing.

honestly though, since u have OCs you should be just fine

life sucks with or without the D, so just quit. its not helpin ya

ya got a heart of gold, just needs a bit of polishing off the tarnish

THATS WHAT I HAVE TO STOP........

tho, just paralyzed...other than that, part of the brain that controls my lefthand/ankle...my thigh does hurt, so i am lucky i have oc's, but i lost the use of my left hand completelyit dont work......it dont hurt, my leg does hurt tho...it was worse than kicking a methadone habit 3 1/2 wafers 40 mg daily for 2 years, then finally kicked the done habit..in jail.......got out of jail got shot (in the dome) and lived..fuck i hate opiates.... i know im posting dijointed statements, i cant help it..... we are going to heaven....i was there, i caught a *glimpse* ...they restarted my heart twice.....i met people i dont know...trust me there is an after life..wait a min, am i in the wrong thread?

but i love em too...

m@

matthewmunari · 05-13-2008, 11:15 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Porcelain

my BF struggling with shotting up 3 times a day for the past couple months and it's really hard for me to find any solution which doesn't involve your will to quit alone.

Fuck, if I had veins or a Piccline I'd be all over that motherfucker....:rol leyes:
but i don't, so its a moot point with me......kinda sucks tho, cuz sometimes you do hit a vein perfect and its bliss.....but we werent meant to feel that good like that, so our brain starts makin reverse cells....kills them, but I smoke the kind bud so I can maintain....Dr.
Pepper, Marlboros, and my CPU...
I need to meet a chick..hey youve seen my pic, email me if your intereted

i come with a wii, unlimited drugs and money

tedkennedy · 05-14-2008, 07:45 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by matthewmunari

I need to meet a chick..hey youve seen my pic, email me if your intereted

i come with a wii, unlimited drugs and money

whoa whoa whoa
lol

gweetar · 05-14-2008, 11:31 AM

I don't know what's more motivating than the fact that if you keep it up, you'll kill yourself. GUARANTEED. And, then there's everything EPIC said above.

Before then, however, you'll absolutely wreck/destroy your body, ruin all of your relationships, lose your money, lose your house, lose your relationships, lose...EVERYTHING.

You gotta be STRONG. You gotta put this in perspective. Seriously. Getting high and living a miserable life leading to a miserable death - guaranteed - or hurting a little, toughing it out, and getting yourself free.

My brother was an alcoholic. No H, no cocaine, no drugs of any kind. Except alcohol, of course. And, I got to watch his body destroy itself in his last few years of life, as he couldn't stop himself from drinking, even though he knew he HAD to, even though he knew every additional drink could possibly kill him, even though he lost his wife, his children, his money, you get the idea.

You just have to do it. No excuses - physical pain, or depression, or anything- no excuses. You've just got to quit. That's the answer. Your depression, ankle pain, is better than the path you may be down now. Good luck.

matthewmunari · 05-14-2008, 09:39 PM

the classic

jail, hospital, or death ............ i fit all 3.......... and lived .............why???

and i am taking my meds as prescribed right now...dude who usually buys the night 80 for 20 then i turn around and call miguel with the chiva n white......its the mental cocaine addiction.....i dont feel it tho...thank god

Smaerd · 06-12-2008, 01:57 AM

Stay clean. I'm about to undergo something very similiar to you tommarrow, give me the best of wishes. Yeah I was once told by the person who tought me how to shoot, he said "this shit will either get you in jail, rehab, or you'll die."...Stay strong though brother

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Epic opiate an-l-jee-zik Join Date: Sep 2004 Location: Sask, Canada Posts: 1,851 Thanks: 5 Thanked 40 Times in 24 Posts	I wish I could successfully quit. Part of the problem is the depression I've been dealing with for countless years. On opiates all my cares are gone. Without them, I start feeling depressed and shitty again. The best of luck to you. I find thinking about all the shitty things that come from being on the needle makes it a little easier than always reminding yourself of how amazing the rush is. IE: Always having to hide your marked up arms, withdrawl's that are way worse, waking up sick (depending on how deep you are in), and having your life have to constantly revolve around 1 thing. Not to mention the harm you do/have done to your body, even if it doesn't show. __________________ #YaHooka <3

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tedkennedy now 14% blacker Join Date: Apr 2005 Posts: 3,352 Thanks: 5 Thanked 119 Times in 77 Posts	i can relate that it is a pain in ass getting dope. for the longest time i fucking spent mad long trying to get connects and wasting my time and money focusing on one thing. honestly though, since u have OCs you should be just fine life sucks with or without the D, so just quit. its not helpin ya ya got a heart of gold, just needs a bit of polishing off the tarnish __________________ matthew munari

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gweetar YaHookan Join Date: Jan 2008 Posts: 281 Thanks: 49 Thanked 42 Times in 34 Posts	I don't know what's more motivating than the fact that if you keep it up, you'll kill yourself. GUARANTEED. And, then there's everything EPIC said above. Before then, however, you'll absolutely wreck/destroy your body, ruin all of your relationships, lose your money, lose your house, lose your relationships, lose...EVERYTHING. You gotta be STRONG. You gotta put this in perspective. Seriously. Getting high and living a miserable life leading to a miserable death - guaranteed - or hurting a little, toughing it out, and getting yourself free. My brother was an alcoholic. No H, no cocaine, no drugs of any kind. Except alcohol, of course. And, I got to watch his body destroy itself in his last few years of life, as he couldn't stop himself from drinking, even though he knew he HAD to, even though he knew every additional drink could possibly kill him, even though he lost his wife, his children, his money, you get the idea. You just have to do it. No excuses - physical pain, or depression, or anything- no excuses. You've just got to quit. That's the answer. Your depression, ankle pain, is better than the path you may be down now. Good luck.

06-12-2008, 01:57 AM	#12 (permalink)
Smaerd observations kill me Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: Vagrant Status Posts: 1,447 Thanks: 157 Thanked 215 Times in 151 Posts	Stay clean. I'm about to undergo something very similiar to you tommarrow, give me the best of wishes. Yeah I was once told by the person who tought me how to shoot, he said "this shit will either get you in jail, rehab, or you'll die."...Stay strong though brother

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