Went to my first AA meeting today.

turmaline · 06-01-2009, 08:13 PM

I've come to realise that drinking is something I cannot stop on my own. So I grew some balls and went to my first "all women's" AA meeting. There were women there from all walks of life....mom's, business women, yuppies, mothers, old ladies. It was really uplifting knowing I'm not alone. I also realise I can't keep blaming others for how my life is turning out. I know I already knew that, it's just hard to know that It's taking me so long to figure it out.

It's really scary knowing that I'm going to have to face life, instead of trying to escape it.

Scarrrrrr errrr eeee!

Mull D · 06-01-2009, 08:36 PM

Coffee and donuts and you get to hear someone stand up and talk about their life so I go with my uncle sometimes, he goes to meetings every day sometimes twice a day. He has fun with it.

turmaline · 06-01-2009, 08:40 PM

haha we had green tea and buiscuits.

I said..."Hi I'm so and so...and I'm an alcoholic" I got to the part where i said "I drink alone, until I unfortunately get too hyped up and release my self onto an unsuspecting society, where I then can no longer go out in public for a few months...then i said "pass" and i cried hahaha...for a second.

man.

Cerebro · 06-01-2009, 09:08 PM

did you bring the lulz?

al-Mu'akhkhir · 06-01-2009, 09:38 PM

good luck turm. give it your all.

myxomatosis · 06-01-2009, 09:53 PM

Hard road, and one I'd have to find a different path to follow to find the end. AA deal wouldn't be for me should I ever get to the point where my drinking becomes increasingly problematic, I don't think I can handle the hand holding and powerless aspects of it.

Really though, I'm happy to see you coming to terms with it. You shouldn't worry at all about the length of the recovery nor figuring things out permitted you are on the path to do either. Seriously, best of luck and I hope it continues to be an avenue of support and that you can continue curbing the drinking.

(It should probably be noted that I've been sitting here contemplating making a drink for the better part of an hour. Hindsight and advice are always 20/20)

Cerebro · 06-02-2009, 01:37 AM

an hour isn't bad, isn't delaying one of the key concepts?

TheGrandPuba · 06-03-2009, 10:23 AM

Just make sure you don't get addicted to those meetings.

Good luck.

turmaline · 06-03-2009, 11:46 AM

nah...and there were no lulz...i couldn't see i was staring at my figety hands.

thanks guys.

Being · 06-03-2009, 11:46 AM

You should have introduced yourself as turmaline...

but srsly good job. i know its hard.
i recently gave up pot (ive been a hardcore stoner for quite a while) and it is difficult facing life sober, but you can do it. i believe in you

seattle420lover · 06-03-2009, 11:52 AM

good luck try and become a health food junkie, when I want a shot of booze or I beer I try and eat something healthy for me instead. I love yahooka and I still drink a little but I've really slowed down. if everyone could find weed everyday, there wouldn't be so many alcoholics GOOD LUCK!
I am not welcome at aa meetings. but I will never give up the ganja!

turmaline · 06-03-2009, 11:55 AM

thanks

It's fuckin hard!

haha it's only been 2 days!

weed is making me anxious...and feel like my throat hole is closing.

i can't lose both!

Legen...dary! · 06-03-2009, 12:20 PM

Originally Posted by turmaline

I've come to realise that drinking is something I cannot stop on my own. So I grew some balls and went to my first "all women's" AA meeting. There were women there from all walks of life....mom's, business women, yuppies, mothers, old ladies. It was really uplifting knowing I'm not alone. I also realise I can't keep blaming others for how my life is turning out. I know I already knew that, it's just hard to know that It's taking me so long to figure it out.

It's really scary knowing that I'm going to have to face life, instead of trying to escape it.

Scarrrrrr errrr eeee!

Good luck Turm, it's a hard but necessary road.

You can do it

Being · 06-03-2009, 01:07 PM

then maybe just live the sober life.

sometimes just taking the hard approach of cold shoulder to everything is the only way to break through the wall

**SageTree** · 06-17-2009, 11:06 PM

Hope things are going well for you. Good on you taking that first step.

AnimalLover420 · 06-18-2009, 08:09 AM

You are doing the right thing, Turmie. Just stick with it no matter how much you may want to go back to your old drinkin' ways. Lots of people before you have done it successfully, and there's nothing they have that you don't have. I love you, Turm. I really do. And I'm proud of you for nutting up and getting shit done.

turmaline · 06-18-2009, 12:23 PM

thank you.

seattle420lover · 06-18-2009, 12:53 PM

when you feel the craving for a drink try a good natural product!
something like hemp milk!

or a nice piece of juicy fruit
(the real kind not the gum)

**SageTree** · 06-18-2009, 01:51 PM

Dude, you are a walking billboard.

seattle420lover · 06-18-2009, 04:29 PM

Everything I eat is from the Earth, right.
I am what I eat straight up Earth, right.
Nothing but a walking sack of Earth nice to meet you how do ya do.
Guess what. Ya you're one too.
- 311 rules!