i havent been smoking bud for three days boy howdy am i a assshole i beat someon up at my work . i work the DPS so it was ok but normally i just write out a ticket and say good nit last note was not good drunk kid splooshed me in my face with a drink when i approached and ask for his ID . so i grabbed him by the back of his head and arm and face planted that little asshole on my SUV . my wife and i have been going at it every fucking ten soconds shes bitchy becasue she wont blazE if i dont outta some sort of fucked up thing "if you dont i wont" shit . FUCK THAT she talks it annoys me even more than before because before i could just roll one up and say fuck you im getting high and ignore her she would hit it 2 and not be a bitch anymore. i stashed all the buds and told her i sold it all . we have more in the shed. but its just not ready yet maybe in week ill cut and dry . so shes being a bitch and im a asshole when i dont smoke . they only reason why i burn buds is so i can relax and sleep . i was a 1st responder to 9/11 and it really fucked me up i never even so much as looked at weed up until sept 22 2001 a week or so afte the shit went down i started smokng weed two weeks after i moved to upstate ny been doing DPS ever since. i noticed that when i dont smoke weed im more apt to punch people in the FACE. i was a violent person before i have an di hav been shot stabbed and the like you know run over beaten with bats ;.. i have done my fair share of ass whompings i never shot anyone or stabbed anyone and smoking weed just fucking mellowed me out like i never thought possible / now i have this saliva test coming u so i had too lay off the bud for a couple days jesus ! i dont want to stop smoking weed so this really fucking sucks . 1 more day not even then im back to smoking got the test on mon at 2 wish me luck i hope i dont beat anyone's ass on the way there . hazardous it probly would be better if you actually knew me and didnt jut read this . here i sound like a fucking roid freak