How old were you when

matthewmunari · 06-04-2008, 01:47 PM

How old were you when you realized you had awareness, and could make decisions on your own....basically what I'm asking is what was the "eureka" moment in your life..When I was 10, I said to myself, "always remember this moment, this day, cause you have awareness"... so for me it was 10....anyone else?

verklingen · 06-04-2008, 01:51 PM

i don't consider myself as having been aware of my decisions until like last year to be honest.

generic_hippie · 06-04-2008, 02:13 PM

I've got awareness slated in for some time next Thursday, around 11 preferably.

WildWill · 06-04-2008, 03:49 PM

I think Self-Awareness comes pretty early for most, I was aware that I was responsible for my own actions at a very, very young age.

Good question though, I'm wondering when my daughter (20 months old tomorrow) will learn this.

Vertigo · 06-04-2008, 06:35 PM

hmm very interesting question. probly when i was young... around 6-9 i really couldnt remember but thats a crazy question. or how about what was your earliest memory/can you remember anything as a baby

matthewmunari · 06-04-2008, 07:22 PM

my earliest memory is me being 3 years old riding around w/ my now deceased grandpa....

Porcelain · 06-04-2008, 10:11 PM

It depends on what you're really asking. My awareness of my self-control came early. Probably when we left Russia and my parents weren't allowed to legally kick my ass anymore...I became aware real fast that I could do most of the stuff I wanted.

However, my awareness of my responsibility for my actions came pretty late...like 16 or so...probably even 20 because that was when I gave birth to my daughter and the hardcore reality set in that from this day on, I'm responsible for every decision I make. I can't blame anyone else for screwing up my life.

matthewmunari · 06-04-2008, 10:30 PM

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Originally Posted by Porcelain

It depends on what you're really asking. My awareness of my self-control came early. Probably when we left Russia and my parents weren't allowed to legally kick my ass anymore...I became aware real fast that I could do most of the stuff I wanted.
However, my ness of my responsibility for my actions came pretty late...like 16 or so...probably even 20 because that was when I gave birth to my daughter and the hardcore reality set in that from this day on, I'm responsible for every decision I make. I can't blame anyone else for screwing up my life.

actually both...self control leads to actions of responsibility.....

but you answered the 1st ? on the 1st paragraph.....life is a trip....its ups and downs i have another ? that deserves its own thread..

The Rev · 06-06-2008, 07:53 PM

I can remember vividly laying in on my bunk bed staring out the window and realizing awareness of my own existence at that moment. It was like I came into my body at that point. I have memories from before that, but not the sense of ME being present in those events the way I do with memories since that moment.

I was probably 7 or 8 at the time.

The Rev

matthewmunari · 06-06-2008, 10:27 PM

thats exactly what i was going for when i started this thread..

tedkennedy · 06-06-2008, 10:40 PM

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Originally Posted by matthewmunari

How old were you when you realized you had awareness, and could make decisions on your own....basically what I'm asking is what was the "eureka" moment in your life..When I was 10, I said to myself, "always remember this moment, this day, cause you have awareness"... so for me it was 10....anyone else?

hm.. in retrospect its hard to say because my childhood is a blur of memories.

in a way i suppose child hood is like a time of mental retardation of a sort. your brain isnt fully developed and your awareness of things is very low beyond playing with friends, eating candy and things of that nature.

to be safe id say 14 years old is when i really started looking at the bigger picture of life and becoming more aware of things greater than i.

but how do i really know i am even aware of things now? 10 years down the line i could look back at myself now and think i was a complete fool. who knows, really.

matthewmunari · 06-06-2008, 10:53 PM

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Originally Posted by tedkennedy

hm.. in retrospect its hard to say because my childhood is a blur of memories.

in a way i suppose child hood is like a time of mental retardation of a sort. your brain isnt fully developed and your awareness of things is very low beyond playing with friends, eating candy and things of that nature.

to be safe id say 14 years old is when i really started looking at the bigger picture of life and becoming more aware of things greater than i.

but how do i really know i am even aware of things now? 10 years down the line i could look back at myself now and think i was a complete fool. who knows, really.

but look how your sentient mind blossomed into a thriving drive for knowledge..

JcP · 06-07-2008, 12:33 AM

23 years old. And it was documented on this forum, actually.

**SweetSativa** · 06-07-2008, 06:15 AM

I don't remember. We learn very early that our actions have reactions. If we cry, someone feeds us, changes our diaper, etc. We learn, as we learn to maneuver our bodies to act according to our will. However, taking REAL responsibility for my actions, my life, and everything around me didn't happen until recently and once in a while I have to re-remind myself of these things. Some of this is getting caught in a "victim trap" and blaming others for things that happen in our lives. Right now, someone betrayed me (long and boring story) at work... kinda stabbed me in the back so I have to work all these weekends after being there a year and a half and someone who's been there 4 mos. has them off (grrr). BUT, I have choices. I could throw a fit and tell her I can't do it, and accept the possibility of being fired or of pissing off the people who have been there longer than me because they will have to cover it, I could quit, or I could evaluate the situation, decide it's not so bad, and live with it.

These decisions come up all the time. I've decided to live with it... now I have to let go of the 'victim' thing and accept MY choice in accepting this as part of my life. Let go of the judgment that hurts noone but me (but I certainly have learned a little about who to trust

).

Rubix · 06-07-2008, 09:04 AM

obviously D.A.R.E, fifth grade - made that conscious decision.

matthewmunari · 06-10-2008, 09:33 AM

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Originally Posted by JcP

23 years old. And it was documented on this forum, actually.

REALLY??

kamikazi89 · 06-10-2008, 03:00 PM

2
4
12(APROX)

22
& A FEW TIMES SINCE.. around november, and again last summer/fall

Man in Black · 06-11-2008, 07:31 PM

^yeah I think it's a gradual process

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SweetSativa Lucid Daydreamer Join Date: Jan 2003 Posts: 3,902 Thanks: 14 Thanked 26 Times in 24 Posts	I don't remember. We learn very early that our actions have reactions. If we cry, someone feeds us, changes our diaper, etc. We learn, as we learn to maneuver our bodies to act according to our will. However, taking REAL responsibility for my actions, my life, and everything around me didn't happen until recently and once in a while I have to re-remind myself of these things. Some of this is getting caught in a "victim trap" and blaming others for things that happen in our lives. Right now, someone betrayed me (long and boring story) at work... kinda stabbed me in the back so I have to work all these weekends after being there a year and a half and someone who's been there 4 mos. has them off (grrr). BUT, I have choices. I could throw a fit and tell her I can't do it, and accept the possibility of being fired or of pissing off the people who have been there longer than me because they will have to cover it, I could quit, or I could evaluate the situation, decide it's not so bad, and live with it. These decisions come up all the time. I've decided to live with it... now I have to let go of the 'victim' thing and accept MY choice in accepting this as part of my life. Let go of the judgment that hurts noone but me (but I certainly have learned a little about who to trust ). __________________ The Four Agreements: Be impeccable with your word Take nothing personally Always do your best Assume nothing

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Vertigo ??????? Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: So Cal Posts: 315 Thanks: 70 Thanked 21 Times in 20 Posts	hmm very interesting question. probly when i was young... around 6-9 i really couldnt remember but thats a crazy question. or how about what was your earliest memory/can you remember anything as a baby

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