i am tripping on acid now as i write this

[Seeds&Stems]

i meant i could easily fall off the wagon.

[Waves]

yo man, ss, im rootin for ya

kickin opes is some hard shit

[Praise Jah]

Originally Posted by Seeds&Stems

i meant i could easily fall off the wagon.

what wagon?

[Seeds&Stems]

the proverbial wagon. i.e. the wagon of sobriety.

edit: thanx waves

[Praise Jah]

Originally Posted by Seeds&Stems

the proverbial wagon. i.e. the wagon of sobriety.

edit: thanx waves

so strap yourself in.

[matthewmunari]

kicking opiates is something that someone should have to go through once, unless your a masochist...good luck, seriously bro..

hint...take alot of hot showers, and drink alot of water, also try to get as much sun as you can so you can sweat the shit out of your system...

[Waves]

serious opiate withdrawal is something i would not wish on my worst enemy.

[matthewmunari]

it can be done, i was with a friend yesterday who got me into heroin, and he was on methadone, etc. and now the motherfuckers clean! im proud of him, he's in that 1% that make it through the 1st 6 months, i have a chronic pain issue myself, so i'll never be "clean"....im taking 3 80 mg of oc's a day and thats BARELY managing the pain....when i have the extra cash ill buy a few bags of tar and snort them, (not all at once of course) space em out over a few days..but theres a new drug on the market .oxymorphone.....(no t diauded thats hydromorphone)im curious to try it, to see if it will even touch my pain......i might have to bite the bullet and go on methadone again...i hope not cuz methadone withdrawls make oxy and heroin withdrawls look like a walk in the park....the 1/2 life of done is like 4 x's longer than oxy....it sucks, i know im in the wrong forum for this post, but somehow the convo drifted over here.....

[turmaline]

thinkin of you Seedy!

[GratefulDead]

Oh damn, but do you really want to give up a drug that can induce self revelations as strong as that?

[matthewmunari]

Originally Posted by GratefulDead

Oh damn, but do you really want to give up a drug that can induce self revelations as strong as that?

he's talking about opiates, i think?

[GratefulDead]

Originally Posted by matthewmunari

he's talking about opiates, i think?

The title of the post is very misleading in that case.

[matthewmunari]

Originally Posted by GratefulDead

The title of the post is very misleading in that case.

agreed, i think he was trippin while kickin habit..

[matthewmunari]

Originally Posted by Seeds&Stems

quite lucid.
i am a drug addict. undeniable

this is not a cry for help.

I know what i am. can i change? truly?

i hope

Maybe ...not an intended cry, but a subconcious (subliminal cry)....I'm right along with / ....you brother....If you need ANYTHING, and I'm able to do it, I'm here for you...just a talk w/ someone whos been in your shoes (I am also a drug addict).....but look towards the positive, you could have ended up in my shoes ..(paralyzed, always in pain, & a drug problem)..and the same goes for me..When I start feeling sorry for myself, I think back to my 3 month hospital stay..at least I recoverd enough to retain "The old Matthew"....but others were in FAR WORSE CONDITION THAN ME..The 26 year old man who has to have a screwed on neck-brace and cannot talk anymore, the 40 year old man who lost both arms in a work-related accident.....When I think of these people, my heart bleeds for them...sure, I lost use of my left hand PERMANENTLY, but I was 1mm off from majorbrain damage.....so don't let the world get you down right now.....life ebbs and flows, and try to pray. To whomever your higher power is, it can't hurt!

Stay strong brother,

Matthew