wiseco

Well my life sucks. my g/f don't know about me doing crank and i've been doing it for a few months pretty heavily. my nose is raw from doing lines and the smoke from the muriatic acid and foil balls has burnt the shit out of my nose. I run people out of rooms while hitting pills with anny and they complain about it burning their eyes and nose.....I'm kinda used to it.


I sleep all day and run all night, I've met some crazy people and even started dealing to some of my friends parents. My life will end when all of this is revealed to the public here. I'd rather go down in a hail of bullets than spend years in prison for manufacturing. I cant escape the world of drugs. I don't know what to do. Now even people I don't know are running around saying they did dope with me. I tried to find one motherfucker with some piano wire and a couple sticks. I was gonna wrap the wire round the bitches finger and pull both ends of it.


My girlfriend is the most amazing girl I have ever met, and she will hate me when she finds out. If we break up I know I'll end up doing something stupid whether it be go back to a needle, OD, or something bad.

Why the fuck did I ruin my life?


So how are you all doing?

Mercury

my life isn't that great either. I don't have a girlfriend or enough money to compensate by doing copeous amounts of drugs. how about that?

no gf no drugs < gf & drugs

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eldizle

wiseco.....you can either drop this shit, and make some big changes to your life, or you can go on in your miserable existence having forgotten what true happiness and freedom feel like...all for what man? is the rush worth it? ask yourself that. ask yourself if that rush is worth throwing away everything you cre about over....and there is your answer.

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"All I care about is that we are all happy and healthy...I don't give a fuck about how you got there, nor to I want to hear endless rambling about how your changes should be my changes...You do what works for you...I will do what works for me..."

~grieves

wiseco

There isn't even a rush to it anymore. I have to have it to be normal.

I always said I would smoke the shit all day if I could.......Well I did and now I'm to the point where I can't even smoke it hardly. I almost gag everytime I hit the pipe unless it's a fresh batch or some of our rocket fuel dope. Last week I remember me and a dude smoked and hotrailed 2 balls of dope in 2 days.

Had a close call a little while back where I used too much rocket fuel in place of the colemans, smoked a pipe and it made my face and body tingle worse than smoking crack. I don't remember much of that day except yelling profanity at the bitch who got out order wrong at McDonalds.



I absolutely can't turn it down, and it makes me late for everything. Now that I think about it.....I have even been going to church fucked up. I feel like such a bad person and I'm pretty sure my church leaders are getting an idea of what I'm doing. My wrists are composed of nothing but bone and my arms are skinnier than I've ever seen. One spot by my elbow is all sunk in and looks fucked up because I guess the fat in that spot just melted right off.

Just the other night I think I smoked 1/2g out of a pipe, then hotrailed a few lines.....not 30 minutes later i was slurring to be fuck and passed right out.



Fuck life is such a test.

mr.nobody

man just smoke some mary j and forget about fuckin crank that shit is just horrible.

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eldizle

having just endured a night without sleep t the hands of tina....i feel rough

wise, you gotta change, or it willl keep getting worse and worse.

check out some inpatient rehabs.

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"All I care about is that we are all happy and healthy...I don't give a fuck about how you got there, nor to I want to hear endless rambling about how your changes should be my changes...You do what works for you...I will do what works for me..."

~grieves

Lloydy

badly

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Keep the red flag flying high

Rubix

ask your church for help

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-Thomas Edison

kamikazi89

tell your girfriend, talk to someone who knows and cares about you in real life, then you &girfriend talk to someones(more then one) who has been through what your being now(trials and tribulations)P

or church(agirl) not the minister

tedkennedy

just take it one day at a time and try to make small steps to improve your life.

everyone has a shitty life if you look at from the grand scheme of things, so just go with the flow and just try to do your best.

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matthew munari

The SARS Volta

You obviously didn't start using with the intention of ruining your life, since you have a startled tone about how the state of things currently are with you.

It sounds stupid of us to say "just stop, get help". It's never that easy, but at the same time, it comes down to that.
The shit isn't making you feel euphoric anymore. If you endure a few miserable days of withdrawal, you will begin to feel physically normal without the drug--taking care of the emotional portion is the real challenge.

Is some trailerpark wonder-chemical* really worth a significant portion of your finances, possibly your girlfriend, your teeth (lol sorry) and undoubtedly your health, should you continue to use?

You're still young and although you may have a pessimistic outlook now, it's by no means too late to start over.

*that was not a dig at you, it was a dig at crank.

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(fiance)

Exempt

^^ ftw dude.

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KrunkHaus

Ego Tripping

Life is going pretty great. I just started my own IT/Web Design business but business is, of course, a bit slow right now. The girl and I are doing great. Money could be better but it can usually always be better. Staying active, happy, healthy.

Winseco: It may be trite, but you're really creating your reality with those kinds of thoughts. Doing hard drugs is the sharpest of the double edged sword, feels the best but has the highest cost when it comes time to stop. Just be honest with her sooner than later and of course she will be pissed, but if you express you want her help, she won't abandon you. If she does, however, the answer isn't getting deeper because at some point you're going to need to turn around on it, unless you really don't value your life and in that case, I can't really help you. Any advice past this is going to seem too cheesy and spiritual for you probably so I'll end with that there are plenty of programs that can help you get out of the rut you are in.

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Ayatollah Of SmokeABowla

eh my life is kinda shitty but im looking to change that. me and my girl broke up, told me she wasn't in love with me anymore and we did everything together including drugs. she mostly just dabbles in the white lady...anyways i live in TN and she lives in PA, i would go there once a month till i can save up to move up there. so now i putting that behind me and trying to move on, hopefully it doesn't take too long. all in all i think ill be ok.

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Daily Toker Here

My head hurts this shit isn't getting me high
My chest is so tight I feel im going to die
My stomach's in knots and the room starts to spin
As I wait for this valium to slowly kick in

i love ganj

ehh got kicked out of my school 7 weeks ago and im starting at a new alternative high school on teh 26th.

gettin a job at Henrys Health Foods in a couple days.
got my learners permit.

its lookin good

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everything that glitters ain't gold

ElectricLucifer

Mine is slow and dull. I don't do much inside the house except download music and chill out... a lot. I wish there were more sensible people in my area, but other than that it is always 'same shit, different day' when it comes to me and tomorrow.

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BudBoy07

How is my life huh?

Pretty good as of now. Higher than a kite and about to head off for school.

SublimeStylez

Hows life eh?

Life is actually a tad on the boring side. It seems like everythings quiet, almost to quiet. Teh Grow is going very smoothly, no problems whatsoever cept some nute problems but that was easily solveable. The gf and I are going to be moving in the next couple months. Not exactly sure where to quite yet but hopefully we'll decide soon. Bud sales are up. Its once again getting dry around this piece just in time for summer.... I already have plans for that though.

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_tyranT

my life is shit right now, got in a car wreck last month and it needs about $1500 in repairs which i don't have.

i got fired from my job.

my grades suck!

no gf right now...

things will get better soon they better for you and me soon its almost summer.