coronapapi

So for 6 months or so I was living with my ex, Brittany, and her family. She dumped me in May because my ex, Brittany, was tired of me being so negative all the time. My negativity was rooted from many things, mostly things that I had no control over. Clinical depression, her bitch sister always treating me like scum, and (most of all) me always worrying about her when I wasn't with her and also the fact that she always wanted to spend time with her friends instead of me. She spend a good 80% more time with ppl other than me. So I would be texting her all the time telling her about how she was making me feel bad by doing that among other things. and eventually she got tired of me doing this. I told her how I felt all the time because in a relationship, there has to be communication of such things. She would NEVER talk about her feeling. I would literally have to beg her to tell me. So she dumped me over my voicemail. My fucking voicemail.
Needless to say I was completely broken.
Then a few days later I started to her a little bit. She ended up telling me that after I got my mind in the right place, less negativity and what not and after I got out of Job Corps (which I haven't been able to get into yet), she would take me back because she still loves me and misses me. She also said that these things take time. Which is apparently at least 8 months, since thats like the minimum amount of time training can take at Job Corps.

Something I forgot to mention; she's with another guy. I asked her the other day if she loved him and she wouldn't answer me. That's a yes.
I asked her how she ever planned on gettin back with me when she's with someone else already. The only way she could explain it is that "there's different kinds of love".

It takes me an hour or two to get to sleep every night because her face haunts me when I close my eyes. Then I just get these "stabs" of adrenaline. It's painful.
She's literally the best thing that ever happened to me. I still love her to death.

So I guess what I'm lookin for advice on is, should I even be putting myself through this for her? I mean I've never forced myself to go through so much pain in my life. The only thing that's pushing me is the fact that in the end I would get her back, but it seems like I'm just torturing myself.

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Mafoo

NO. dont put yourself through anything for her. you need to be right with yourself to be in a healthy relationship, and having someone tell you that theyll take you back sometime in the future is called being in an unhealthy relationship.

find another girl who wants to spend time with you. i can basically garantee that you are blinded by your emotions at this point and that down the road you will realize this Brittany girl isnt thinking of you.

if it feels bad then it probably is bad, and im guessing being with this girl felt really bad. you say shes the best thing that ever happened to you, im sorry but you need to never think like that. dont worship this girl, you gotta live for you.

lemme know if you need me to reword it. it sucks but you ought to move on and find someone who actually cares right now and isnt interested in having you on the hook for a long while

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maszac

i wouldve dumped your ass, too

but, hey, i know where you coming from, my insecurities have cock blocked me many of times, so i just stick to picking up girls while boozing, fake it till i make it... or black out andd scare them away. either way, at the end of the day i got... well i aint got shit but this thread is about your pathetic relationship skills and some dumb skunt.

coronapapi

Thanks a lot Mafoo. ^_^
The only thing that I need to figure out is how to completely move on. I just started using rubber bands on my wrist for everytime she comes to mind, seems to kind of work too. lol Kinda.

maszac- Do me a favor and go fuck yourself.

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maszac

hey, if you want some pity, post it in G&S. The only reason I ever posted some lame queer shit like this in FFA is so some one would call me out as being a whiny bitch about the whole thing, putting some real perspective in it.

not my fault you leech onto some one and when they caught on, ditched ya.

John F. Kerry

bitches is trouble.

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John F. Kerry

"I just started using rubber bands on my wrist for everytime sh"


just outta curiosity do u like icarly ?

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coronapapi

I've never watched it, nor do I plan to. lol

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Flamingnun

Pics of ex?

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coronapapi

I would, but at the moment I'm tryin to repress every thought of her face that I can.

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Sir-Ex

no dude, share her, cheapen her, degrade her til she's nothing. Let nun blow a fat one all over the screen for her.



It'll make the whole process much, much easier.

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Ditch the cigs!!!!!!

The Rev

It sounds like you turned her relationship with you into a job. From what you say, it sounds like you put alot of pressure on her with your insecurities (texting her all the time, begging her to talk to you, etc.), and ended up pushing her away. Don't be too hard on yourself about it, it has happened to the best of us. When I was a kid, I could be kinda needy and shit, too. It made things worse, every time.

I think the best thing you can do now is accept that it's over (even if you get back together in the future, it's over for now) and make the best of it. It's going to hurt, it's going to suck ass, and you're better off sucking it up than trying to deal with it by calling her, writing letters, or trying to modify your position with her in any other way. Don't try to fix it, just let it go. It will hurt for awhile, but eventually, your life will draw you back in, and you'll get back to living it.

I think, too, a main ingredient of your problem is the depression. Have you done anything to get that dealt with? You will find things like this are alot easier to handle when you don't have THAT shit fucking with your head. Take it from one who knows.

Good luck man. Stay Strong.



The Rev

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Jimmycube

no, she isnt worth it man. It sounds a lot like she is actually using u at this point puposely using your insecurities against u because she knows she can which is very bad news.

u missing her and seeing her face at night when u are not together or broken up is pretty typical for anybody after a break up. It doesnt mean she is special, it doesnt mean its true love or anything like that. It just means, u miss her and really, not even so much her but u miss having somebody "be there" for u *I use that phrase lightly sense she was never really there for u at any point by the sounds of it* u miss having the idea that u have somebody who loves u basically.

in my opinion get the fuck away from her and fast. The quicker u do it and get back out there the quicker all this "i still see her face" type of thing will end. It sounds like u have some stuff to work on in your own life *confidence, self worth* as well and until u have those issues worked out u will just end up in more relationships like this one. People can pick up pretty easy on that kinda thing and some people use it against u.

get the fuck out of that relationship. its never going to go anyplace good man, i think u know that yourself.

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Mikey

i told you kids crack is some baaaaaaaaaad shit

no but in all honesty
just count your losses and move on
i know its hard
trust me, trust me
i know its hard


but the second your dick finds another warm hole and someone else to wrap your arm around at night, it won't all be better, but it will be alot better

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The Rev

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Mikey

i'd hit it

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Lloydy

Grow a pair and get on with your life

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Dantastic

LOL the instant a girl stops telling me how she feels and doesn't want to spend time with me, its fucking kick to the curb time like I was a kicker in the world cup and I was playing for columbia(props to those who get that joke).

Srsly bro, sounds like you stuck around to long for a girl who wasnt that into you in the first place.

Quite frankly, mazac is a little faggot bitch, but he also is right, my insecurities have cock blocked me to much, and they will keep cock blocking you if you dont get your self esteem together.

You should have left her alone, lived at her house and ate her food and started fucking one of her friends, duh. That's what grown ups do.

K10

Maybe throw a brick through her windshield to let her know you're thinking about her.

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crookedhatinator45

excactly what i was thinking when reading that ish.

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